Hi, things have become a lot more difficult over the past month, I'm finding that support is pretty much non-existent - through counselling - and through my friends as well. I am having a real tough time motivating myself to do anything at all and its the minor stuff never mind my university work. I have always had problems with sleep patterns throughout my whole life but I've always managed to wake up fairly quickly (within 1 hour) but these days I never really seem to wake up, I'm just there. It seems my bed is my only place of comfort at the minute, but that in itself is a problem as when I 'rest' my mind is constantly thinking, and not good thoughts either. I seem to be getting worse all the time, but I've said this before and it keeps digging and ebbing away. I now have no desire to socialise, to speak with anyone I don't tend to miss anything I see everything as a chore. I can't seem to do anything and it scares me, really scares me. I've had enough
Sorry if none of that makes sense, just praying that this helps me in some sort of way