Hi new guy

[james101]

Hi I'm James from Birmingham U.K I suffer from depression and anxiety although I am not on any meds. My problem is I find it hard to open up to people and be myself fully around people I do not know i.e father and brother. I only have one friend and even they are not the closest friend. Iv'e struggled with depression since probably my early teens brought on from bullying.

 When I was 17 I had a bit of an emotional breakdown(realised I'd lost sense of who I was and was just going with the flow) and this was when I discovereed I was really depressed and have struggled with it since then - I'm 27 now. My anxiety also came on about that time because my depression made me reclusive for a short period of time untill I forced myself to start going out again. The anxiety remained however.

 I went to college from 19-21 and was going to go to uni but decided against it because of my anxiety and depression. I have since worked on and off but have struggled holding a job down for a great length of time because of my depression and anxiety. Getting a job is also hard because I have spinal arthritis and narrowing of the spine which means most manual jobs I am unable to do because of the heavy lifting/pushing and pulling etc.

 Iv'e just started a manual job because Iv'e been able to do this sort of work in the past(but now think my back has got worse) and although I can do the job fine and I'm happy enough doing it Iv'e had terrible back ache today. So now I'm thinking I might have to go down an admin or office route.

I joined this site just as a place to come for support and to offer support. Would be cool to maybe make some friends too. Anyway thats me condensed. Feel free to say hi.  

[lightenup]

Hi James welcome to the forum, I wish more people would speak on the forum so we could hekp each other understand we are not alone.  Unfortunately i wasn't aware I was depressed, until I started to cry about everything...........mmy Dr caught on.  Just want to be safe inside on my own.  Very strang as my job entailed a lot of travel and speaking to strangers.....................scares me to death thinking about this.   Take care

[Lil Miss Lost]

Hi James welcome to the forum, i have depression and anxiety too, except i am on meds but they arent working yet, i always knew i was an anxious person but never realised i suffered with anxiety until the weekend, unfortunately the medication i was prescribed for the anxiety made me feel so sick so now i need to find something else that works! I start my new job soon, ill working from home but does require speaking to people on the phone...my worst nightmare, so yep just going with the flow of depression and anxiety and hoping i find something that helps and trying to help people along the way when possible :) take care and see you around the forum :)