Sometimes... its a bit too much :'(

[Got]

Wow Ice Lolly. For such a young girl you are having to go through a lot.

I havn't read your journal...sorry....but now I have read what you are going through, I will read it.

Much of your symtpoms sound consistent with depression and anxiety. However, the fact you cannot regulate your own body temperature, this sounds like it could be viral, or some other kind of infection.

I do not know your history, but it is possible that you may be suffering from an infection or another physical illness that is causing you all of these symtoms. You may have depression as well as a non-mental illness, or perhaps you have an illness causing you to de depressed.

It does sound like a good idea that you are getting all these tests done. Please do not be scared.

I think it is completly out of order that you have been banned from complaining at home. Considering what you are feeling like, it is no wonder that you have a need to expressed yourself. Keeping things bottled up is not mature at all. You are doing the right thing by getting this out in the open.

I hope you get answers soon.

Love Steve X

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone xx

The doctor and the counsellor think that some of my symptoms are caused by stress and low self esteem but some are definitely physical. I just wish that people at home would understand sometimes

[Zaf]

Once you get a proper diagnosis hopefully your folks will start to ake some notice

Z xx

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Zaf x

I'm am aiming to get my Dr's appointment for next monday after school. Now I come to think of it I don't think she will run anything more than a few bloodtests perhaps, she thinks its down to stress or possibly ME.

[Zaf]

If she cant find anything try asking to be referred, you have so many physical symptoms and you need a diagnosis

Z xx

[CharleysAngel']

Yeah I could ask to be referred, I'm not sure where I would be referred to though, I have heard that these ME specialists can tell from one appointment if someone has ME but from what my doctor was saying I don't think there is any of them around here

[Buttercup]

I know it took a lot of pushing for my step mum to get a ME referral and then she didn't get a proper answer.  Really hope that they get to the bottom of your symptoms soon Icelolly. xxx

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks buttercup x I just don't see what else they can do for me and I have this horrible feeling that I will never get a diagnosis

[Buttercup]

I'm sure you will Icelolly, you just might need to be a bit persistent with them. xxx

[Sweetpea]

I agree you have to just keep pressing about how bad you are feeling and do not get fobbed off.

S x

[CharleysAngel']

I will, but it gets a bit tough when I seem to be the only one fighting this battle. My mum still insists that its to do with my age and so has no interest whatsoever. My head of house tried but there is only so much she can do

[Sweetpea]

Really don't understand why your mum thinks this, the way you are feeling is not normal.  Just hope your dr helps you.

S x

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Shaz, I never really tell her how bad I'm feeling because she doesn't want to hear it. She probably doesn't know about half the symptoms I have.

[Buttercup]

I wonder if it might be an idea to talk to your mum about how you are feeling, in a neutral place or over a cup of tea or something. At least you've given it your best shot then.

Xxx

[Sweetpea]

I agree with buttercup, you need to give her a chance to understand.

S x