Hi Everyone

[willows]

I went to the appointment, although when I was waiting to be called I got so anxious and panicky I wanted to run out of the waiting room and was actually about to when I got called. I was more honest with my gp this time and have had my dose of mirtazipine upped to 45mg. I didn't really want to up the dose but my gp convinced me that I should give it a try. I should be having an initial  assessment for CBT in the next week or so as well. I think I have to give anything a try as I can't carry on the way I am 

[Buttercup]

Well done for staying and being honest with your GP.

Hope you're cbt assessment goes well, mine was fine, I worked my self up for nothing.

Xxx

[Sweetpea]

Well done for staying and being so honest with the dr.  Must have been hard for you.  Hope the CBT helps you.

S x x x x

[willows]

Thank you Buttercup and Shaz.  :)

[whiteadder]

Hi Willows, I think I missed this post (had a few tricky days) ...anyway, welcome :) and look forward to chatting with you on the boards

:)

[Mrs_cat_lady]

Hi willows, im really sorry to hear tyou feel so distruaght. Maybe if you cant go to work you could find other things to keep you occupied. I can sympathise with your feels of being out of control and things not going your way. I really hope you can find a way to get through this. Mental illness is a awful horrible thing to deal with. hopefully you have the inner strengh and energy to keep going and find peace at some point.
if theres anything we can help with we'll do our best to help.

x jen x

[Catbrian]

Hi willows....I think when we are feeling let down by the meds, we tend to believe in an ability to cope without them.  In the last two months, I had been riding on a high from finally finding a new medication which I thought was working wonders.  I could hardly sleep at night from the excitement of finding the wonder-drug.   You can imagine how I felt this week when the same old depression came creeping back in!  From previous experience, this usually means the dose needs increased.  Hope you find the increase in your mirtazipine to be helpful

My GP is excellent, but every time I see him, I can barely concentrate on our conversations because the paranoia is screaming at me about how I am wasting his time.  What helped the situation was actually telling him. 

Can you tell me what Mirtazipine is, please?

Cat

[willows]

Hi Catb
I agree with you about feeling that I could cope without meds because it seemed to have stopped working but my gp explained things in such a way that I kind of left there feeling that it was my decision to up the dose which was  good for me as I struggle when I feel things are out of my control.

Mertazapine is an anti-depressant known to help with sleep and I must agree that I do sleep better now than I was but still not great. The increase in the dose has left me feeling very groggy today and yesterday but hopefully that will pass the longer I take them.

I hope today is a good day for you.

Willows x

[Sweetpea]

Hope the side effects wear off and the medication helps you.

S x x x x

[Maddymoo]

Hi willows, I'm glad you have upped the dose, and I hope you start to feel an improvement soon.

Do the side effects of mirtazapine wear off quickly? I hope so I just started it on Wednesday.

Maddy xxx