New here

[Thresh]

So I've been reading a lot on here for the past 2 weeks. I've never posted here before.

I have up and downs, always on a daily basis. They seem extreme. I can go to sleep in peace or I can want to end it all. I don't think I ever feel in the middle, normal.

I have been seeking advice/help on another board, but depression is not the main area of focus there, so it takes days sometimes to get replies.

So my question is when things are bad, how do you get through it? How do you win the battles?

[english roze]

Hi.
I'm new here too, but have already had kind words of encouragement from lots of people so I know you are in the right place.

I get through good days by talking and letting it out. If I feel up to it I talk to my oh or a close friend who is also going through this. If its a day I can't talk then I write it down. I have a journal of ramblings where every thought I have is written down.  I think a huge contributor to depression and associated disorders is the feeling we have to suffer in silence. So others don't feel embarrassed.
When I feel like cutting I go outside. Even if I have to go in my pjs. It's something very private and something I'm ashamed of so would never be able to do it in public.

[Thresh]

Hi.
I'm new here too, but have already had kind words of encouragement from lots of people so I know you are in the right place.

I get through good days by talking and letting it out. If I feel up to it I talk to my oh or a close friend who is also going through this. If its a day I can't talk then I write it down. I have a journal of ramblings where every thought I have is written down.  I think a huge contributor to depression and associated disorders is the feeling we have to suffer in silence. So others don't feel embarrassed.
When I feel like cutting I go outside. Even if I have to go in my pjs. It's something very private and something I'm ashamed of so would never be able to do it in public.

I actually started a journal of my own maybe 4 weeks ago. When think things are bad I tried to write &$%+ down and not act on it. When I'm doing well I read it, it's like reading something someone else wrote, what I write is just terrible to say the least.

I've also been keeping track of bad days vs good, as of today I'm at 13 of 20. I consider a good day a day I don't want to kill myself, as sad as that is.

I've never felt like cutting or anything like that. I just simply have my good days then bad, bad is questioning why I should not end it right then and now.

I consider everything very private as well, only 2 people know what I am going through and I have been holding back the details of things to say the least.

[Sweetpea]

Hello and welcome to the forum,

You are not alone here, we all understand depression and will be here for you to help you and advise where we can.  Are you on medication for your depression?  I also think the right type of therapy helps.  I have counselling and medication and the combination is working well for me.

Its also a matter a matter of taking baby steps and not expecting to much of yourself, make sure you rest, you are ill and you need to be kind to yourself to allow yourself time to heal.

I also understand your fear in not telling people you are suffering, mental illness still has such a stigma.  But as I have said you are not alone here.

Take care

S x

[KateG]

Welcome to the forum Thresh. You're not alone here, everyone understands

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome :)

I echo shaz's post, also that everyone will help you as much as they can

Z xxx