here goes

[no-one-special]

why nurture love when we are destined to spend eternity alone ?   

[Zaf]

But are we?

Z xx

[no-one-special]

I think so. we spend our lives building walls that when the time comes our defences are so strong and our man made bubble so small. We choose reasons to exclude but never reasons to include so as time goes by we sit in our empty fortress looking at the walls we built and forever regretting not putting so much as a door or window in that could lead us to the out side world.

[Zaf]

Thats probably true in this life but eternity?

[no-one-special]

there is no heaven there is no hell will all live in an reality we have made for ourselves .

Eternity stretches as far as can be full of isolation and emptiness , of soul searching and regret . It is a reflection of what we build in this world that we take to the next

[Zaf]

I dont believe in heaven or hell either but I do believe in eternity and what we learn in this world helps us in the next :)

[no-one-special]

and what we dont learn we repeat .

Thank you for replying xx

[Zaf]

We may do but we also get a chance to learn more

Z xx

[no-one-special]

If we are all made in gods image then why are there people who are evil ?

[no-one-special]

I saw the stars
I saw their eyes
I saw them stare
arms open wide

I heard the stars
come hear the sighed
come here and heal
come here and hide

I felt the stars
their heat inspire
their love is strong
their need desire

And now they fade
as the sky turns blue
as the bird song flows
my tears do too

[no-one-special]

I have a make or break meeting with occupational health tomorrow I feel so defeated I really feel as if I want to say enough is enough. They expect me to drive 16 miles to get to the appointment which is in the middle of liverpool at 5pm It just feels like they are doing everything to make it as hard as possible for me to get back to work.

But they dont see that this is making things worse. I have to tell yet another stranger how I feel and whats going on. It has taken me a year to open up to the doctor and 6 weeks to speak to a counsellor but work expects me to bare my soul to a stranger for 30 mins so he can say if I am ill or not ! How is that going to make me feel better ? How is that going to ease my stress, reduce my depression ?

I can't take OH as he doesn't know what is truly going on but I can't drive so have had to ask my union rep to take me.

It feels hopeless. I have no idea what to say. I have no idea if I will be able to say anything. Just thinking about it is making me feel sick to the pit of my stomach ,

wish I could find a dark room lay down and just sleep until it all goes away. I feel so lost.

[Sweetpea]

This is going to be very hard for you.  Could you try writing down how you are feeling and take this with you.  That way you can hand this over, maybe it would be easier for you this way.

Hope it goes as well as it can for you.

S x x x x

[Zaf]

I agree with shaz, hope it goes OK for you xxx

[no-one-special]

Thank you both for your time I think thats a good idea I will try and fine some peace and write it down xx

[Yorkshire GaS]

Really good guys