I know how you all feel at the moment. I ve been there too. I feel like hugging you all and make you feel you are not alone in this world. My fight with depression ended happily. Constant visits to doctors didnt help me..I was so afraid to take the pills in the ammount I was prescribed. But I was blessed to meet one person who helped me to get rid of this desease during very short period. No medication, no doctors, no hospitals. It took me just one week to get back feeling inside me how this life is beautiful and start enjoy it to the fullest again, to sleep well, to feel the taste of the food,to start dream again and to have great wish to live... During this period I met few people there who got rid of depression after third visit, after only just 3 hours, and 2 persons who got rid of PTSD ( as they told me they were sexually and physically abused) also after couple of visits. In my case it took a week. Almost 3 years passed since then. No any sign sign of depression anymore...