Well it has been quite some time since posting on hear and I feel like lots has happened in the past couple of months including a fairly recent diagnosis of Bipolar 2 disorder and now that I know whats making me the way I am I can finaly take all the necessary actions to treat it.
Its strange I thought I would feel something towards being diagnosed with bipolar disorder but I dont feel anything not even angry I just feel numb and I keep expecting to wake up one day and for it to suddenly hit me but other than the usual symptoms of my condition there has been nothing and I don't know if this is normal. I guess its probably because I knew for a long time that I was bipolar so I have already excepted it and the diagnosis was just putting something on a piece of paper nothing has really changed.
I have spent the past week researching my condition and finding out the facts and what kind of help is available but I'm not sure if that was a good idea or not because I keep expecting to go into complete melt down mode or freak out and end up doing something completely stupid and out of character. I guess that this is all something I can disguss with my new psychiatrist though. she has given me a week to get my head round everything and figure out where I want to go from hear as I wasn't too keen on rushing into things.
I genuinely dont know how to react or act now its like this odd sense of faulse reality almost like im dreaming and I dont know what to do with myself.
any advice would be appreciated and I would also like to hear other peoples bipolar stories if you dont mind sharing them.
smirfy
