Hi, first time on a forum

[k8ty]

Hi
this is the first time I have ever used forum but fingers crossed it'll help.

I'm 27, married and have been dealing with depression for around 2 years now, my husband was diagnosed with MS around this time and this has contributed to my depression. I have been taking sertraline for close to the 2 years.

I don't know why but the past 2 weeks seems to have brought everything to the front and i feel like i can't cope anymore and the act i always put on has slipped. I have seen a few different therapists and am now being seen by the mental health team.

This week the dosage of setraline has been upped to the max and for the first time I have been signed off work for 2 weeks, I feel so guilty about it and feel like I am letting everyone down, especially my collegue (who is also a good friend) is now having to go into work when she should be on holiday.I dont know how my work are going to be about it, i think they will be fine but there is so much work for so few people and i have just added to that workload for everyone.

I hate the stress I put on my family and the way I am just now, I want to get better but feel like I have been trying and trying and nothing seems to work. I just feel so disappointed in myself and guilty for bringing this stress on to others.

I do realise this isnt the brightest hello and I am sorry if this really isnt the place to put this. 

[junior]

Hi K8ty,
Welcome to the forum, you cant blame yourself for feeling depressed it's an illness and if your doctor say's you need a little time off work im sure it's with good reason, depression make's you blame yourself and feel guilty about anything even when it's not your fault, a bit of time to yourself might help you feela little better.
Take care
Junior

[lightenup]

Hi Katy, welcome to the forum.  You have a lot to deal with but you must take time to get yourself better before you can deal with your husband's illness.  The problem with depression it is not visible, it is only now my husband really see the signs when I am not well, when I let my mask slip .  Your Dr would not sign you off if you where well, so you need to acknowledge you have depression.............something I still find hard to do.  Be kind to yourself and take care.