Despondency

[Gabbycat]

Hi guys, I am new to these forums, I just wanted a place to voice my thoughts really and talk to other people who I hope will be understanding...I don't really feel like I can talk to many people I know because it would probably just come across as whining, as I don't really have 'real' problems. It will probably come across that way on here too, but I guess I can just delete my account or something, rather than annoying/alienating my friends.

I've been having 'depressive phases' for years and I am in one at the moment - I just feel generally despondent, everything seems really pointless. I am in my final year at uni and I'm on track for a first or a 2:1, I have met some awesome friends at uni, and I still find my course interesting, so really I have no right to complain, but I just feel like the entire time at uni has been quite pointless, and I have literally no motivation to do anything even though I have several impending deadlines including a dissertation-related one. I don't know why but I just have this feeling of general apathy at the moment, I can't motivate myself to do anything worthwhile - uni -related or otherwise. My room is a state, I need to go food shopping, and I could've spent this afternoon/evening tidying up and going food shopping and doing the relatively small amount of reading on an interesting topic that I have to do for tomorrow, but instead I have spent it mooching on the internet and feeling sorry for myself. Also, all I want to do at the moment is sleep - even when I'm not tired. I just literally don't see the point in doing anything else. This has been the case for about a month and a half now.

Any advice on how to try to be more motivated, or even any comments telling me to shut up and stop feeling sorry for myself, would be appreciated, but I don't really mind if no one comments, I think it has been a bit of a relief just typing this out, I don't know.

[MINDFUL HELP]

Hello Gabby,

I'm sooo pushed for time so I have to make this short, but I've read your thread and you have evey right to be happy and never feel that you are whining. It's good to talk and it's good you have written this, and yes this does help.

You sound as if you have a lot going for you, but that's hardly a consolation to you at the moment.

As I am pushed for time, please get in touch with us either on here or our site

sorry to keep this short and sweet

take care today,

Mindful help

[junior]

It sounds like you need to boost yourself, depression will drain everything from you including your concentration, have you tried going for a jog or doing a sport you like? It helps alot of people, you could also try anything that keeps your mind busy and away from the depressive thoughts.
I hope that helps.
Junior

[bel]

Hi Gabbycat,

Don't feel that you are whining, or have no right to complain. If you are in a depressive phase everything looks grey, or even black, no matter how good it looks from the outside. You can always share whatever you feel on here.

I understand how you feel; many people would envy the life I have now, but that doesn't stop depression returning from time to time. Then I feel guilty as I have nothing to be depressed about, so I feel more depressed  "£$.

I'm pretty bad at motivation too, but I will pass on a friend's advice: lists. Write a list of what you have to and then focus on one thing at a time. If you only manage one thing you can feel you've made some progress, rather than thinking of all the things you should be doing.
 
best wishes, bel

[Stonesour]

Hi - time for me to hijack your thread  . I agree that sometimes it can help to unburden yourself a tiny bit by writing down your feelings. On my posts i tend to just bash it down without editing so its an accurate illustration of how im feeling right then.   Motivation is hard....I have been having a hard time at work, just come home and sit alone and inert. I KNOW I should be doing stuff and feel worse for knowing that - the old vicious circle we all seem to know so well.  I managed to get out and play guitar with an old and new guitar buddy on Monday which was nice but inevitably the bubble burst the day after. As for 'shut up and stop feeling sorry..'  comments, thats  basically my GP's stance - we all know that doesnt help as you are screaming inside your head 'yes I Know I should be doing that BUT I CANT and I dont know why'.  The only support I can give is to understand what you are feeling-its exactly where i'm at.  I'm still trying to get sorted but things just keep kicking me! I sent you a karma point if that helps  :)