Hi All, I really appreciate that you've replied to my post, it's so rare for me to be able to speak to anyone these days. I can't talk to my mum about the depression, I've had her having a go at me all day. As if she thinks it'll make me better.
She said she's sick of everything being a negative with me, how all I ever do is moan and how I've lost my motivation (because I'm doing as I'm told by the doctor and having a week off work). She thinks there is no reason for me to be depressed, she doesn't understand that there is no reason to be depressed, you just are. She screams in my face that I'm bringing it all on myself, that I just don't want to be happy and that I am stupid because I haven't left my room for three days (not true, I go and tidy the house when she is out, I go to the gym, I just hide in my room when she is home).
I'm on the waiting list for counselling and they are due to call me on 15th July to see if I need to be moved up on the waiting list. So there isn't much I can do on that front.
I've done a bit of research and there are no MIND services within 30 miles of me :/