Hello to everyone, I'm new here and I figured it's probably polite to make one of these posts introducing myself, though I won't be going into personal details much for obvious reasons :)
I guess a good place to start would be sharing a little about my... hmm, what's the right word... "background"? I'm 20 years old, and have suffered depression for a little over 3 years, it all started off when I had a really crappy period in my life, 2 of my close relatives died, I lost my job, my girlfriend left me, I was kicked out of my family home and then to top it all off I took a pretty nasty fall from my motorbike and wrecked it - this all took place within about 3 weeks. I think losing so much so fast was just too much for me, but I couldn't show it to anyone, I suppose I'm just too proud or stubborn or something...
After weeks and months of completely isolating myself in my tiny little flat (rented accomodation), sort of... drowning in the constant sadness and solitude, I decided there was only 1 solution - suicide. I don't want to go into details of how I tried it, but I ended up in hospital (couldn't even manage to kill myself without screwing up
), where I was referred to a local mental health group thing. They recognised my depression and prescribed some pills which I never took "£$ and erm.... that's pretty much it. 3 years later and nothing much has changed, I told those mental health guys I was fine and they stopped seeing me and cancelled my prescription, but the truth is that I feel exactly as I did back then, I still think about suicide on a daily basis but I'm still reluctant to ask for help..
I'm hoping that maybe someone on here knows how I feel, cause it sure as hell feels like nobody in the "real world" does.
