Hi

[sapphire78]

Hi, new to forum, not new to depression. It started from teens and has haunted me ever since. Now 34 unemployed for past 6 months which is all new to me as always worked. Along with debts and previous bad house share Ive hit my rock bottom and trying to drag myself back out. On 20mg of citalopram and had a referral for CBT. they now do a phone version which Im waiting for first appointment. I find I pull myself up out of it but then life circumstances and self hatred kick in then Im dragged back in like fighting against sinking sand. Have now got a dog that gives me reasons to get out of bed. Partner trying to be supportive but has his own stuff to deal with.
Thought forum may help.
Least people may not judge me so easily as family etc do.

[stewart]

Hi Sapphire, welcome to the forums,
it is often the case for many to be fighting a battle between feelings of ups and then something happens to drag you down again,
the citalopram you are on has room for increase up to 40 mg, and there are plenty of other anti d's around if one does not work, some here are on a combination of 2 or more meds to help out.

as you say, people here will not judge you, and im sure if you have any questions or thoughts on a topic you will get plenty of addvice from members.

[sapphire78]

Thankyou, Ive been on various doses and types over the years with varying results. Im on review at moment for possible increase.  :bgrin:

[Pip]

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You will be made welcome here as we're a friendly lot and understand what you're going through.  I'm going out shortly but wanted to welcome you first 

[SteveW]

Hi Sapphire. I am sorry to hear that you are struggling. As Stewart says 20 mg of Citalopram is just a starting dose and you can go higher. There are 24 different anti-depressants on the market so you have masses of drug options to explore. I hope the CBT works for you. Telephone based CBT seems to be as effective as face to face. For that matter CBT delivered via DVD on a computer is about as effective as face to face, so is online CBT.

If CBT doesn't sort things you could always get yourself referred to your local Community Mental Health Team. They are usually very good at Assessment and can usually provide a range of treatments from their own resources. So far mine has supplied me with a Community Psychiatric Nurse, a Psychiatrist, a Clinical Psychologist and an OT without going outside the team. They will also be aware of other resources like mutual support groups and the like. CBT doesn't tend to be
long term so a referral to a CMHT in the medium term is something to have at the back of your mind.

Hopefully CBT and Citalopram will crack things for you though. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.