Hello...I'm new.

[Willowrose]

Hi darren_71,

how are you feeling today? Did you manage to get out the house today?

It turns out my friend thought that I wasn't talking to him and that's why he wasn't talking to me. We may still be chatting etc but that's all we'll ever be. I think that's more of a kick in the teeth than anything really 

I managed to get out to uni today and go to Yoga. I'm feeling quite lonely now though

[Mark]

Hi and welcome to all the newcomers.... %^&

Keep those posts coming, its what its all about....

 +=-

[darren_71]

Hi Willowrose

How are you today?  I'll give a big virtual hug to help with your feeling of loneliness  %^&.

I had a virus for the last few days but the upside being that I have slept a lot and have been a bit foggy headed so I have not been really low and getting upset.  Maybe I should just stay sick.  I'm going to make the effort to go to work tomorrow as it is someones last day and I really get on well with him so it will be my last chance to see him.

It is a shame about your friend and if it is too upsetting just being friends then it might be best to distance yourself from him.  Please try to be guarded where he is concerned because the last thing you need is him picking you up and dropping you whenever he feels like it.

I'm glad you managed to get out and go Uni and Yoga.  Was anyone friendly at Yoga or was you isolated by established cliques?

[darren_71]

Hi Mark

Thanks for the welcome.  Hopefully we can all get through this together.

[Willowrose]

Hi darren_71,

thanks for the virtual hug. I'll send you one too %^&

I'm sorry to hear that you've been unwell. I hope you feel better. Perhaps it has helped you to catch up on some sleep. Did you manage to get into work today?

I'm sleeping terribly. I'm falling asleep very late and waking up very late too. It's not doing me any favours and I think it's making me even more tired. I managed to get up to town today to get a few bits and I did feel OK because it was lovely weather. I've been feeling lonely and down again since I got back though. I keep hoping my friend will change his mind about me and I'm statying logged in on networking sites for hours on end in the hope that he talks to me. He never does though unless I start the conversation and even then he doesn't have much to say in reply. I really want to just delete him and walk away but I can't... &*( What do I do?? I'm such a fool and I feel like such an idiot for letting myself get hurt again.

I'm supposed to be going out with my housemate tonight for drinks, but the way I'm feeling, I'll just end up getting wasted. Which is not a good attitude to have at all. I had a message from another friend last night and he was only after one thing. At the minute, it feels like that is all I'm good for, especially after the way the other friend has treated me. It feels like no one can be bothered with me, as a person...

[Willowrose]

P.S. Hello to Mark  %^&

[Jess]

Hiya Willowrose, im not so good but i will manage i suppose. I hope your ok. Speak to you soon xxx

[darren_71]

Hi Willowrose

I am feeling a bit better and even managed to pop into town myself to get a few bits but that was out of necessity rather than anything else.  I am planning on going back to work tomorrow (Thursday) and some people are going to a pub after work so I may go if I feel well enough (and brave enough ).

As for your friend, it may not be what you want to hear and I may be wrong, it sounds like he is not interested and probably never will be but I think you know that already.  As for the other guy he sounds a dog and you should steer well clear.  Maybe a night out away from the social networking sites is just what you need and a good drink slagging  these guys off to your housemate could help.  There are nice guys out there that will see and like you for the person you are but you are just attracting the wrong ones at the moment.

If you do go out then enjoy yourself  &^%.   

[darren_71]

Hi Jess

Why are you not feeling so good?  Anything you would like to say please do as we are here to listen and are going through a bad time ourselves so we can empathise.

[Willowrose]

Hi darren_71,

how are you today? Did you make it into work and to the pub? I hope so  :)

You're right about my friend. I'm talking to him less and less which is good  I think. As for the 'dog' I ignored him. I worth more than that. My night out was good. Just me and my housemate who completely understands me. We got quite drunk and ended up in a jazz club which was actually very soothing. I've been able to focus on my singing more in the past couple of days too. The rubbish thing now though is that I've got a cold

I have to work today and tomorrow but I'm really not in the mood to face people. I need the money though

[Willowrose]

Hi Jess,

how are you feeling today? I'd like to help you if I can. xx  %^&

[darren_71]

Hi Willowrose

Hope you are feeling better and it was not too bad for you at work.  Sounds like you had a enjoyable night out and hopefully that did you some good.  It is also great that you have been able to focus on your singing.  What type of singing do you do?

I went to work Thursday and made the effort to go to the pub.  I did not drink because I was still not feeling 100% but had a good time anyway :).  I had Friday off work and have slept or laid around most of yesterday and today.  Can seem to get motivated to do anything. Hopefully I feel different tomorrow.

[Willowrose]

Hi darren_71,

How have you been? Sorry I've not been on here in a while. It's been manic moving house and settling in etc.

How are things with you?

I'm OK. Not so good today. I feel a bit like the third wheel in my new house 
I'm off to Oz next week so I'm really hoping that I'll come back with a new perspective on things. I stayed at a friend's house the night before last and well, I probably won't hear anything more from him...Why do I ALWAYS do this to myself?! 

How are you Jess??

[darren_71]

Hi Willowrose

Glad to hear from you and you don't have apologise for not posting on here recently. It is a shame that you don't feel comfortable in your new house and hopefully over time that will change.  It would be nice if you hear from your friend again but don't stay logged into facebook for hours this time it just make you feel worse.   

I was doing better until the last few days when I let my ex get to me again.  She always does the same when she breaks up with a guy.  She wants someone she can vent her frustrations out on for a few days and I am an easy target because I take it.  Then she spends a day or two being friendly but somehow twisting things so she gets reassurance that she did not do anything wrong in her relationship that just ended and giving her confidence a boost.  I then don't hear from her for a while again leaving me feeling used and worthless.  I don't know why I allow her to do this to me  &*(.

I have not been going out much still except for work.  I don't know if it is the tablets but I have not been feeling really low lately and just kind of going through the motions.

I hope to hear from you before you go but if not have a wonderful time in Oz and hopefully you will get that fresh perspective.