At times when I know I am in a funk, I tend to read about depression. What I wondering tonite is do I perhaps have an internal shame battle going on when I feel this way. Or could depression really be something such as diabetes and I am too hard on myself and really should treat my symptoms instead of getting mad at myself on top of feeling down because I simply respond to life with a downing outlook due to chemicals in my brain being off due to about a billion potential reasons such as heredity, environment food, past experiences and etc. should I maybe just accept my depression as I simply accept that I get migraine headaches and sinus infections under certain conditions. I can't completely avoid the sinus infections and migraines come on for various reasons. Never have I been ashamed of my migraines or sinus infections but I do get upset about my depressed feelings. I think tonite I felt good wheni read about others out there that cope with this thing called depression as was able to digest their experiences just like I do when I read about sinus infections and migraine headaches. Sadly, lots of stigmas around depression. I remember when I first decided to take meds for my symptoms of depression, my ex husband called me crazy. Perhaps then I realized I was ill and decided that route was smart and similar to taking sudafed for a sinus issue and when it escalated went to a doc for stronger meds. Oh the insanity.
