Not again...

[shadow]

Hi, I'm new here but not new to depression 
I recently decided to stop my ADs after 2 years as I felt I was strong enough to cope without them, its been 4 wks since I stopped taking them and I'm back at square 1 and feeling like everything is spiralling again. I have not been into work so far this week and have told them its a stomach bug, which is sort of the case because alongside the blues, i get IBS. I've seen my docter who advised I try CBT if I dont wish to go back on ADs, but the wait is weeks! What can I do to get myself through? I teach and if I have more time off I fear for my job which then make me feel worse, as it is I feel like I've let everyone down. I can't talk to my parents as they viewed being on ADs as being on 'hard drugs' and really dont understand what I'm feeling, I have a lovely BF who I'm marrying in July who is so supportive but I just feel he needs a break from my sudden floods of tears, but how do I get through this?
Thanks

[Lil Miss Lost]

Hiya Shadow, is there any chance you could go back on the anti ds, at least that would perhaps pick you up again in the meantime to get you through until the cbt starts and hopefully get you feeling good again for your wedding, iv given up talking to my parents as they really didnt understand, but you have to do whats best for you, i found help through forums and learning about it myself online, books from library etc, at least then you dont feel so alone.

Your BF sounds brilliant as is mine but i do often wish i could give him a break from it too, there is a natural remedy called st johns wort which is meant to be good or 5htp tablets you can get them through health stores! St Johns Wort can interfere with the contraceptive pill though. There are alot of books on CBT out there aswell, have you tried looking for some to give you a bit of a head start, hope you find something that works, its hard carrying on with things when you feel so low x

[lightenup]

Great advice lil miss lost.  It takes a while for the medication to clear the system, just like it take 4 weeks plus to go into the system.  You are under a lot of stress at the moment with wedding arrangements.  Maybe you should speak to  your Dr again to help see you through this period.  To be honest it good to talk on the forum as you know people understand what you are going through.

I am due to go for therapy on Tuesday.  So will post what it is all about.  Good luck

[shadow]

Thank you both for the advice, I've decided to give St Johns wort a try to see if it will help

[shadow]

Well I'm back on the ADs again  feel like such a failiure for having to take a step back. I've been awake all night feeling anxious and sick, I keep telling myself its irrational and I just need to try to get on with things but the thought of leaving the house this morning has once again reduced me to a nerous heap...
I'm so worried that I will loose my job, but I can't stand in front of my class of little ones today, I don't want to make a fool of myself in front of my work colleagues either, so I've called in to say I wont be there. Feel so trapped by this again, anyone else around this morning?