Was hoping for a miracle cure but maybe there isnt one?

[Lil Miss Lost]

Hello to you all :)
Have been on Fluoxetine for 10 days now, i have been on them in the past and im sure they have worked quicker than this!! I always wait until im really sure i need tablets before going to the doctor, so when he said theyd take 2 weeks to even begin working i thought im sure they work quicker, can cope with that!! Well they arent and i feel just about as hopeless as i did before i was on them except now i have the added bonus of constant teeth grinding!!

Have never really understood depression in the past although iv learnt alot from the net in the past few weeks, dont know if thats a good or bad thing because there are times i thought depression wasnt there and now i know different after reading some of the symptoms, and i feel like iv been depressed for as long as i can remember. Have always taken myself off of the antidepressants in the past because i thought i was better. Guess im just wondering if i am ever going to feel better. Got the school holidays coming up at the end of this week so im gonna have to be supermum for 19 days and im not sure if i can cope with the thought of it!! Its hard enough to look after yourself and get through the day let alone having to be all smiley and have loads of ideas to stop dear child getting bored, would love some advice please... :)

[tryingmybest]

My experience with fluoxetine was that it didn't start working until after about 4 weeks but then it just totally flatlined my emotions. I didn't feel as sad but I never felt happy either. I felt like a walking zombie, not drugged up, but just emotionless. I really don't want to go through life like that but I understand that sometimes it's better than the alternative. Eventually I found that exercise (in particular running) works well for me and does a better job of lifting my mood without completely wiping out moods and it works instantly. Having said that, I'm currently in a bit of a downward spiral and am considering the fluoxetine again.

[Lil Miss Lost]

I know exactly what you mean with the Fluoxetine and emotionless is not good! Im glad you find exercise helps you it does for me too, i have quite an active outdoor job which is good. Not good to hear you are on the downward spiral aswell! Hope things get better for you soon and thanks for the reply :)

I had a bit of an episode over the weekend, not really sure how it all happened but i was sooo down and the fluoxetine were doing nothing, i was given a prescription drug from a friend that was meant to give you a bit of a high called pregabalin, so i took it and everything was great! i felt on top of the world back to normal, cured! the next day now this is the really strange part i was offered some dihydracodeine was told to take 4 and theyd perk me up again, well im not stupid and i know that they are strong painkillers but the thought didnt even enter my head at the time (that they were painkillers, or that i was taking 4 of them) and i took them then a little while later took 2 more and felt bloody ill! ended up with me being sick and feeling rough as hell for 2 days. When i realised how stupid i had been i was mortified! went back to the doctor yesterday and told her everything, shes now changed my antidepressant to sertraline  50mg increasing to 100mg next week and an anti anxiety medication called Buspirone which makes me feel ill so iv had to stop taking that for now! I wasnt even aware i had anxiety! but i definetly do, just hoping they can find something that wont make me feel sick. its no fun feeling how us lot do on here! when i work out how to beat it ill let you all know

[lightenup]

Was on fluxetine 20mg and then moved up to 40mg, it thouroghly didn't agree with me, not sleeping and I was totally hyper most of the time.  (like a tazmanian devil), had to be weaned of them which made me feel even worse.  The Dr has me now taking Cipralex 10mg, and also on zoplicone to help me sleep.  They seemed to be helping for a while, my hubby was pleased when I was even starting to smile and have a laugh.  However this week, I seem to be right down at the bottom again.  Blaming empty nest syndrom after family went back to their homes after easter.  I spend a lot of my time trying to figure out how to get better, what is making me like this.

The sleeping tablet is giving me a bit of stabling but I don't want to get hooked.  At least my mind is inactive when I take a full one, otherwise I could right several books with whats flying round my head.

Most of the time I just want to be left on my own, I truely believe only people who have this horrible condition can only understand it.  Take care everyone.xx 

[Lil Miss Lost]

Hey :) Yep the not sleeping is getting to me a bit now, this morning i was anxious and shaky but now i couldnt feel more different happy and smiley, not at all stressed, had so many ups and downs over the last few days i cant keep up, go from being totally sociable with people and wanting to go out to not being able to talk to them and not wanting to go anywhere, im so confused!!

Im the same as you at the moment spend alot of my time learning and trying to work out what the hell is going on! Im trying to speak to my partner a bit more and he has been very understanding he knows what goes on in my head isnt normal but doesnt like that it cant just be fixed!! Hope you manage to get a bit happier again soon, take care xx

[lightenup]

I wish past users would come on and help with some positive responses.  Had a really bad night and the nightmares were awful.  Waiting for appointment with the mental health team.  Don't know what they can do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Just want to curl up today and sleep yesterday I was like a tazmanian devil house scrubbed from top to bottom.   &*( just want to get out of this hellhole

Glad the fluxotine are helping you.  Keep us posted on your progress lilmisslost x

[Lil Miss Lost]

I really need help at the moment too, i really honestly believe the antidepressants are making me worse! have just been to the doctor and ended up in tears, feel like she was trying to prove me wrong on what iv been feeling, my mums on my case about everything too. The doctor has prescribed me valium now, so i suppose thats some relief for the immediate future, got to wait for appointment to see a psychiatrist i just feel like everythings falling apart and i dont know what to do anymore my emotions are all over the place but right now they are so low.

Hope the mental health team can help you out lightenup, i wish i could give you some advice but i wouldnt trust my judgement at the mo, its just rubbish when you feel like it! Do you know how long you have got to wait for your appointment?
Iv never been truely honest with them about everything and i wish i had of been at the start might be a bit further up the road to recovery now, i just feel my life goes in circles and always end up back at the start or the end which is depression, i have majorly happy periods where im the life and soul of the party or i feel like i am, can talk to anyone, want to go out all the time even when iv got no money, probably more likely to stay up late, so confident, then slowly i drive myself mad with constant thoughts going round in my head until i push most people away, get irritable and moody with everyone and anyone, thinking back now i have caused some right scenes in the past, very embarrasing, then i slowly sink into depression and feel guilty about everything iv done, anyway im just rambling keep posting people its good to talk :) x