From the beginning?

[onedaysoon]

So basically, Depression has been something that has played a part in my life for a long time. I tend to have bouts of it. If that at all Makes sense.
I can been fine foe days, maybe even weeks, then all of a sudden i hit rock bottom. People don't realise that im not doing it on purpose. I can't help the way i feel!? Its such a demoralising situation because i don't want to feel the way i do, yet because i feel the way i do i don't want to do anything about it or feel i cant do anything about it.

I guess i don't really understand much about depression itself, iv never really spoken to anyone who knows anything about it. A friend i confided in wants me to go to the doctors and talk to them about it. I wouldn't know what to say, i don't cope very well with talking to anyone, not face to face anyway.

Guess basically the whole point of this post was to chat to some others, who might actually understand what i feel right now.
This weeks been a low week, i was fine on Monday completely normal. And Tuesday i crashed, and have been down here since.

[tryingmybest]

I think the main point to note is that you are NOT alone. There are millions of sufferers and what you've described sounds quite common. My depression comes and goes too, and sometimes I have no idea what set it off. Some of the best advice I've received is not to beat yourself up about how you are feeling. They are just thoughts and they will pass.
I'd say definitely go to the doctors. Again, they will have heard it all before, many times. Just tell them how you are feeling. Even if you don't like / agree with what they say, it's another opinion and I find it's sometimes good just to be heard.

[Lil Miss Lost]

You are definetly not alone! I know its really hard talking to the doctor, i had to go in and tell a new doctor id never seen before that id accidentally without really realising taken an overdose last weekend, im not crazy i promise i just wanted to get high/be happy not be ill So i would say definetly speak to a doctor, they are the only ones who can help you beat it, i probably got more help from the new doctor than my usual one anyway, if you dont get one who understands keep trying! As for the way people think, i just keep myself to myself smile and say everythings fine and isolate myself from them because they really dont understand! Thats probably not a good way to go though, the main thing is you cant help the way you feel and you deserve to feel better so please go to see a doctor, write things down for them if you cant say it aloud and as trying my best says definetly dont beat yourself up! Its not your fault you feel how you do  %^&