i was badly bullied all through my teenage years, just stupid boys calling me names like ugly and stuff but it was everyday constant abuse. i didn't have anyone to turn to as my mum had server depression. so my confidence soon went to zero i became sucidal, started drink and drugs, hung around with ppl who didn't respect me and got into a lot of trouble. after a few years my mum had enough and threw me out ended up in a hostel were i met the father of my children and although he was no good he taught me that someone could like me for being me. after i had my kids i realised i needed to change my life,grow up and stop hanging around ppl who were no longer good fro me, so i moved to a different area for a fresh start. I've been here for just over 3 years but still haven't made any new friends, ppl just scare me. I've been going to conselling since june last year and still can't even bring mysef to have a conversation with a stranger. I feel so gulity all the time to because I think that my children don't have a normal mother who socialises with ppl,just like my mother. I have a terrible fear that my children will have a depressing childhood like mine. I guess maybe i would like to see if there is anyone else out there like me who i could talk too.
