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[potter1]

Hi all,

Why do I feel bad that I have had only 8 replies to a mssage saying I am on he brink of suicide?? Thats me being totally paranoid but it feels like this forum is not lookin after me. Not that I came on here to be looked after but I thought that I may gain soe perspective from it's members. How selfish is that?

Anyway, the meds aren't working as I am still drinking heaviliy and have taken to not even being able to leave the house. I am so alone and my friends have deserted me as they have lost patience and sympathy as I can do nothing nothing nothing to help myself. I cant fin the motivation to go to the gym to the shops or evn the bathroom at times.

I'm totall and utterly lost and in hug despair

[Zaf]

possibly because a post like that acts as a trigger to some of our members and they cant cope with answering,  we all suffer from depression and you'll notice that sometimes one or other of us sort of drops out of proper conversation for a while and then comes back again.

I think its the nature of the illness that makes us feel differently from normal which is possibly why you feel selfish,  I feel selfish sometimes when I need to rest even though I know its the only way to feel well again

If the meds arent working you seriously need to consider going back to your GP to tell him/her how you feel as it may be necessary to change the dose or type of antidepressents

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

I agree with all Zaf has already said, I have only once ever thinking I would be better not being here and that was several years ago.  I admit I find it difficult to know what to say to people that are feeling suicidal, I would hate to think that something I had said would make someone feel worse.

S x

[Jae]

Hi all,

Why do I feel bad that I have had only 8 replies to a mssage saying I am on he brink of suicide??

Hi potter .. I think we all have times where we feel we are being ignored on messageboards, even when we are in a really bad way .. and it feels even worse when you are feeling that way, because everything seems so much more intense somehow.  Some years back, I ended up falling out with a group of people on one particular forum because I was in a bad way myself, and because I felt I was being ignored, I ended up lashing out at them because I couldn't understand why they didn't seem all that concerned about me.  Because I was quite new to messageboarding at the time, I thought it was just me who felt like that (being ignored) but since then, I've quite often noticed other people say the same thing .. that they feel they are being ignored, for one reason or another (even if it's something like posting a joke, and no-one responding or laughing at it).  So, really what I am trying to say, is that it is just the way messageboards tend to work .. I've found that messageboards can be absolute life-savers in some respects, but they can also be quite difficult to handle sometimes, simply because of the way that they work, especially when you are feeling a bit fragile yourself, so try not to take anything too much to heart .. easier said than done, I know (from experience). 

Keep posting .. and take care.

[Ezel]

potter1, in the early days of me posting on messageboards there were times I felt I was being ignored and nobody cared.  As others have said it's not that you're being ignored more of a case that members are suffering in other ways or feeling the same so find it hard to respond.

The last couple of weeks I've found it harder than usual to concentrate as I broke my ankle recently.  I've been in a bit of pain and have felt frustrated because I am being limited a bit on what I can do.  I don't want to take my frustration out on members here as it's not their fault so I tend to read more than I post.

Hang on in there  &*(   

[Jae]

The other thing I was wondering was whether you have been able to read any of the other threads/posts in the forum .. I know you're probably not really feeling up to it .. but sometimes when you start reading what others have posted elsewhere, it starts ringing a few bells and you think "hey, that's exactly how I feel right now" .. and just even knowing that, knowing that someone else feels the same, and you aren't alone in your feelings, can help just in itself.

[KateG]

Potter1 I think that many people don't know what to say, but they do read the posts on here and do care. Jae is right, sometimes just reading other people's experiences helps too.

Keep posting

Kate x

[Jae]

Not sure if you've looked back in here since you last logged on (I think you can still view the forum without being logged in?) but just to say we are all still thinking of you, and hope you are ok.