Can't turn off my brain!

[Ruth]

I have been asked to write down my negative thoughts as part of my CBT therapy. Since then I just can't turn off my brain. I have suddenly become really paranoid. I told a couple of my close friends that I am feeling bad at the moment and crying a lot. Now I cannot stop feeling guilty for moaning. I did it in a matter of fact way, without going into details and changed the subject quickly.  I have nothing to talk about accept how bad I feel, because that is all I can think about. I'm trying really hard to hide how I feel, I just can't seem to keep my mouth shut. I am really paranoid that I am upsetting everyone. Last time I was like this I could not cope with the constant paranoia and started straight back on AD's, but I am trying really hard to avoid that this time round. Is this because of the CBT? Will it go away?

[Got]

Hi Ruth,

Logically, you shouldn't feel guilty because as a human, you have a need to express yourself when you feel bad, and so your friends are obvious people to choose. It is perfectly normal human behaviour, and certainly isn't compromising to freindships.

However, like you said, you are depressed and also paranoid, so you are bound to feel guilty about things.

In terms of ADs, if you are struggling, why not try them? Sub optimum mental health is unpleasant, and you don't deserve these nasty symptoms, and anti depressants could help you. In combination with the CBT, they could really help. Its you choice at the end of the day, those are just my feelings on the subject.

I suppose it is possible that the CBT tasks that you were set could have triggered you, but, assuming that you have a decent CBT therapist, the CBT should prove useful over all.

Hope you feel better soon,

Steve X

[Ruth]

Thank you Stevie. You are right. Logically I know I have not just done something unforgivable, but it feels like it. I guess I needed someone to reassure me that it's ok. Regards the ADs I'm still agonizing over them. Not good at making decisions lol. Thanks for helping me snap back into a more balanced view.
Hope you are having a good day today. X

[Zaf]

I'd also say go back on the ADs

Z xx