sorry for absence

[danbob]

yeah had a tough week or so, i kinda got a little edgy and vented on here which was the start of a bad depressive episode.

i see a psychiatric consultant with my local mental health authority who signed me off on the sick, i still have sicknotes running through to january...

i was claiming ESA because i couldnt work or sign on and they decided that i was fit enough to work even though i have been signed off by a consultant, the pen pusher with no medical background thought otherwise, if i want to appeal it can take up to 3 months.... a long time without money.

i cannot claim jobseekers because i have been signed off but cant claim anything else because they think im ok to work... iv had to beg one of my friends to give me a few shifts at her pub even though you could tell visually that it wasnt a good idea for me to be working, but it was money.... last week i was given a shift and the woman who chucked me off ESA came in for a drink..... i obviously didnt take this lightly and proceeded to lose it..... one thing led to another and i spent a night in the cells.... released without charge thankfully but safe to say my friend wont let me work for her again ha ha.

so yeah im pretty much screwed 

[Alstare1974]

Dan that sounds really crappy.

[danbob]

i just hope the counseling starts soon, i feel like im gonna explode.

i react strangely to anxiety..... i get quite angry and sometimes violent and im being forced back into mixing with people again....... i have agoraphobia..... makes day to day life incredibly hard at the moment but there is nothing i can do

[Got]

Anxiety can make me feel aggressive also, especially if I am being forced into something which triggers anxiety by somebody, I am likely to get angry if they persist when I ask them to stop. i wish I didn't do this

[Zaf]

Danbob, have you thought of phoning or going to the CAB for some advice on benefits, or perhaps MIND or SANE?  Its ridiculous you are not receiving some financial help

anxiety makes me have angry and ometimes violent outbursts too so I dont think its all that unusual with depression, I also have agrophobia at times which is a nightmare, is there someone you know that can help when you findit difficult going out?

xx

[Depina]

Morning Danbob
How are you?
Di XXXXXXXXX

[Munchroom]

Danbob when I had that desicion made for me by some idiot who figured that because I wasn't sweating, wasn't rocking backwards and forwards and 'had no ideas of suicide or self harm' (not that he even asked so... he must be some sort of rubbish telepathic idiot who gets it very wrong!  ) I disputed it and I am pretty sure they have to carry on paying you at least something until your appeal is heard. it might not be the full about (I think mine was around £65 a week) but it is better than nothing. When I won my tribunal back in July, I was told my amount would go up to £94 a week and I would recieve a rebate as I had been underpaid since February  />.

I don't mean to panic you - but it is all changing next year. Unless you are terminally ill, no-one will be entitled to ESA  I am pretty worried about this because I am just at a kind of happy medium at the moment (I'm doing permitted work) I would imagine there must be something else coming in to take its place. I regularly see a lady at the job centre now, just to 'monitor' me... and she is very friendly and is disgusted that I was told to go back to work (a lot of people who work for the DWP agree that the 'medical examinations' are complete bull!!!) If you dispute it (which I think you definetly should) and they keep paying you, you are almost in a win-win! By the time it gets to appeal/tribunal, it'll all be about to change anyway!! You'll also get your medical report through, which tells you exactly why they think you are eligable for work (it will be completley ridiculous reasons like.... your clothes were clean or... you didnt speak under your breath  )

They are idiots Danbob who have NO idea about mental illness and how it effects us day to day! All they see is an able bodied person who in 'their' opinion, can sit behind a desk! Thats all it boils down to! But it definetly does not help us when we already have enough to deal with.

xx

[danbob]

im just going to have to get a job again.... which i dont mind i just dont trust my temperament.

munchroom..... im not even gonna bother with the job centre.... half of them are more mental than me..... none of them want to help you and its easier to find rockethorse poo than it is to find someone who knows what they are talking bout in there   

[Depina]

Gosh-the job centre, over the years I have been there and they hardly look at you when you walk in, I got no help whatsoever !!    They just point you to the computer - I can do that at home !!