Hi everyone,
Never joined a forum before, but running out of ideas for things that can help. I am 25 and have suffered from depression for most of my life, I remember being 5 years old and feeling really really unhappy for no reason. As I have got older, I have been fairly successful in terms of achievements, graduated from university with a good degree, been working in a good job and I have a nice family and good friends (although few). I just have such low self-esteem and don't seem to enjoy anything ever. I see other people out enjoying their lives and I know I should be the same but I feel so empty inside. Many of my family members suffer with clinical depression and I was diagnosed at 16 and have been on and off medication ever since. I am currently on cipralex and have been for the past 2 years, I feel it helps things slightly and am too afraid to even try coming off it. I have started cbt sessions but so far these have not helped.
I just feel so alone in the way I feel, I don't feel that I can talk to my family about how I feel as I just don't feel comfortable with it and I don't feel my friends really understand what I am going through inside my head. I have a boyfriend who has suffered in the past with depression, however he is not one for talking about feelings and I haven't pushed the subject as we have only been together 2 months. I feel like my life is passing me by as I can not get the motivation to do anything. I'm not really enjoying my job and just feel things are never going to change.
It's strange sharing this information with essentially a bunch of strangers, but I figure there are people out there who understand what I am going through.
Will be good to talk to people who really understand.
