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[Anabel]

Hello,
I am new to this forum and have been recently diagnosed with clinical depression.
I am on medication but only started 2 weeks ago and feel worse rather than better at this stage.
I feel so much dispair and helplessness and i feel so isolated from everyone around me.
I just want someone to understand how i feel. I guess thats why i joined this forum.
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[lightenup]

Hi Anabel welcome to the forum, unfortunately you will feel a little worse with the meds as they take 4-6 weeks before taking effect.  It took me 4 times of med to get the one that worked for me.  I am feeling just flat nothing else which is better than how I originally felt.  Please take care and take time to use the forum, as all the members here understand. 

[Anabel]

thankyou
i do feel a little better today actualy but not sure how long that will last as i have good days and bad days. but on the good days i still feel anxiety coz i'm scared what the next day will be like. sometimes i feel such dispair and so alone and it frightens me so much and i feel so alone even in a room feel of people! i dont eevn know why i feel like this. i'm having counselling but i'm not sure its helping. i feel like such a fraud coz i dont even seem to have a very good reason for feeling this way and i'm angry with myself because i feel weak and embarrassed and normally i am such a strong person. i just want to get back to being myself but i feel like i have no control and that scares me too. i have lost all self esteem and i dont want to do the things i used to love and sometimes i dont even want to get out of bed and when people try to encourage me i want to but something holds me back i get really paniky and tearful.
i'm afraid this wont ever go away and i will always feel this way!

[Rosie]

Hi Anabel
I felt exactly as you have described so clearly, for many months.
I just want to say that you won't always feel this way, it will take time
with counselling and the meds will eventually help.
I am not saying my depression and anxieties have gone but they are
more managable. I feel like i can move on with my life and so will you in time.
If you want to chat you're welcome to pm me.

[Stonesour]

Hi Anabel,  welcome from another relative newcomer, I too understand where you are coming from, Im not on meds now but have been in the past. I totally agree with even on a good day, you worry about it being a good day and that the next day will be a bad day! makes no sense does it.