Few months after counselling...feeling the symptoms

[CeePeeBee]

Hi all,

Long story short, I have always been short on confidence and when I was moved to a new job and the problems in that job coupled with the death of my wife's father tipped me over the edge.  I was off work for 6 months and was in counselling for around 18 months.

Many issues were resolved and my confidence grew.

Fast forward and I have another job now within the same company (back to doing what I enjoy), but recently I have felt like I'm starting to get back to my old ways of being negative.  I try and be positive but I find myself sometimes getting quite down some days now.

A new guy has started at work who is very enthusiastic, and very good at his job.  I know this bothers me, but I thought I was more comfortable in my own skin.

My counsellor was great for me and suggested that when I quit counselling, I replace it with something.  I have replaced it with doing some night courses to feel better about myself and re-enforce the positives about myself.

Just thought I'd vent on here in the hope others have gone through the same.  I feel I am always going to have blips, but this feels like a subtle change that might slowly change into something bigger.

Cheers

[lightenup]

Hi Ceepeebee a warm welcome to the forum, I am ill now about 18months but only diagnosed about a year ago.  Similar to yourself the death of my sister and also myself and my team where made redundant, with me administering the bad news colmunated in me becoming ill.  I have been attending a therapist now for a few months, I have a also had to deal with the murder of my eldest brother and then telling my parents about the death of another brother in a car accident.  I never dropped a tear in front of anyone in the family for fear of upsetting them.  Now I am in this mess.  Granted when I come out of the CBT session although having mostly crying my way through it I feel exhausted but always upbeat.  I go fortnightly as it is not near to home, I have been ill and unable to attend my last session due to flu/cold bug, and feel now I have lost ground.  I am not working at the moment and it seems to take me and age to complete the most minute tasks, it worries me that with no support in the future of leaving the programme will I sink back into the black hole.  Where you offered any way of getting a little support when you needed it like now?     

[CeePeeBee]

Hi lightenup,

Unfortunately with the North Warwickshire Counselling Service there is no phased closing out of sessions which means it comes to an abrupt end.  I can attempt to get myself back in to see people but quite honestly I don't believe I need that, I need to develop a healthy function of talking and dealing with problems as they arise.

I am writing this a good half a day after I posted originally and I feel completely different.  I believe it may just be a small amount of inadequacy resurfacing relating to my work.

Nobody has moaned about my work so I should probably just enjoy that :)