Hi everyone,
So, I used to take fluoxetine (20mg increased up to 40mg, but neither dose seemed to make any difference), which I stopped taking for a few months because I had felt fine for about 18 months after my last serious episode of depression. Now I'm not on anything although I do currently have a prescription for 10mg citalopram (I asked the doctor to try some new ADs), which I didn't want to start taking because I had a couple of pretty important job interviews coming up and a) I know that starting ADs can give you funny side affects and b) if I got a job I was worried about having to do a medical questionnaire or something and didn't want to either say I was taking ADs or lie. Anyway, now I'm pretty much at rock bottom. I lie around all day in bed or on the sofa sleeping, crying or trying to watch tv or read a book. I can stop thinking about how I have f***ed up and how I would rather be dead. I don't know if I can cope with this although at this point I am way too scared to try anything actually suicidal. What I want to know is whether if I go to the doctor whether they could give me anything that can help at least until any ADs would potentially kick in. I need some respite. Anyone know anything about this kind of stuff?