Hi,
I'm a student currently studying at university. Over the past few years I have felt miserable at times, but it's never started to effect my life up until the last few weeks. I have just had no motivation to do anything, preferring to stay in bed all day. Even the simplest task such as washing a few dishes is becoming difficult because of the constant negative thoughts circling around in my head. I genuinely worry for my work if I don't clear my head soon. Just feel like crying every minute. I'm that bad I was unhappy on Christmas Day. The worst bit of it all is I don't know why I feel like I do. A lot of the time I feel down for no apparent reasons. It makes me feel selfish because on the face of things I've got a pretty independent life, and have done relatively well for myself, but I just can't help how I feel.
I think a lack of sleep may be contributing to it, but I have had family problems recently which have made myself and my brother move out, so we're fending for ourselves. I also have a lot of free time as I'm not in uni that often and only work part time. The dissertation may be stressing me out as well because I want to do well for myself. I try to think positive but it just won't happen at the moment. Can you advise me on what I need to do? Do I need to see a doctor? Do I need to take medication?
It might be relevant to tell you that I have asperger's syndrome as well, which limits my ability to adhere to ordinary social codes of life. I have a small circle of friends, but not enough to feel happy, and I certainly don't get out enough in the day or have nights out. I feel more lonely than ever and don't know who to turn to.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.