Today I feel flat as a pancake!! Approx 9wks ago I started taking Quetiapine. Almost immediately I was blown away by the positive effects it had.
I've written in a previous post (under medication section) about the drug instantly becoming a huge motivator; suddenly I was rushing around cleaning, washing, clearing cupboards and doing all the stuff I'd been putting off for years. It felt like I had taken stimulant drugs... and I've loads of experience with them! The Quetiapine was lowering inhibitions and even easing the paranoia.
Riding high on my new-found enthusiasm, I also spent a few days sorting out a couple of personal "issues" I've had with certain people, including my Psychiatrist of 13yrs. The situations were not easy to confront but I felt it absolutely necessary for the continuation of my recovery.
Finally, at long long last, I had found something that was working. I could have my life back... go back to work... move back to Scotland....Yes, Quetiapine was my saviour... or so I thought.
This week I have that same old sinking feeling of dread... the depression is lurking and my paranoia is creeping about. I swallow 375mg of Quetiapine every morning but with little effect.
Today I asked the GP if he could restart my Citalopram. He was happy to do so but eventually we agreed to wait until I see the new Psychiatrists. He actually called her secretary while I was there. The appointment to see her is on 27th June.
I do have a newly appointed care co-ordinator at the mental health team (the first in 13yrs), but our next meeting is not for another 3wks. I suppose we were optimistic I could cope alone until then. However, tomorrow I shall test the service by requesting an appointment for next week. Unfortunately, I don't have much faith in this particular mental health team. To date my dealings with them have been limited and strained... let's hope and pray they prove me wrong.
Ah...lovely....I feel a bit better for getting some of that out!!
Cat x
