Hi, I have suffered with depression for 16 years and it has got bad recently. I have had to tell my employer that I have been bullied over the last five years and awaiting a response tomorrow. The kind of abuse I got was for having dark skin, being overwight, having a hairy body, being depressed, even my manager humiliated my infront of other the other day. Anyway I doubt I will ever be able to return there so I don't know what to do. I have no energy or interest in much, not eating properly. Although I thought I was starting to improve with a combo of venlafaxine and mirtazapine from my pdoc. I also take lithium and buspirone. I don't have any friends and can't stand most people. Also I am scared of the repercussions of what I have told my teacher. One of the blokes named at work is still serving a suspended sentance for violence and the best mate of the other has done time for again, violence. But I had to do something I couldn't continue to be treated that way everyday. I just hope my GP is sympathetic enough to sign me off otherwise it's game over.
I do have some interests in life. My children of course, music and science. Trouble is I don't know anyone who find music and science as fascinating as I do. Everything I do is in my head.
