Am I totally mad?

[Hope]

I think im going crazy. I can feel all this pent up anger and frustration in my brain. Why did I get married and have children, this depression is ruining their lives. God help me I dont think I can be like this anymore....

[Sweetpea]

 &*( Hope, can I ask have you seen your gp? Are you taking medication for your depression?

S x

[Zaf]

Depression is a horrible illness Hope

Z xxx

[mamalou]

Hope,

This is a familiar story to me 

I too feel that I am destroying my marriage and affecting the lives of my children immeasurably.

If you're mad, then I am too. But the one thing I know is that we can't help it. We certainly never chose to be depressed.

Also. wondering what support you have in place, ie. gp or mental health teams  ???

You deserve to get the right help.

Hang in there. 

Mamalou x x

[Hope]

I have seen my doctor on 2 seperate occasions. Ive had 6 sessions of counselling. my Doctors surgery has written to me on several occasions asking me to make an appointment but cant build up courage to make it, its going to be the ramblings of a mad woman if I get there. How all I still do is think about throwing myself under a train, its still there it wont go away. My husabnd asked me if id like to move into a place on my own so I wont have the distraction of him and the boys.... does he want rid of me really is this his way of getting rid... my brother suffers too and is on so many tablets. I wont go down that road, see rambling.... good grief... ive applied for an assistant manager paid job at the charity shop ive volunteered at for the last 5 years. they wont want someone like me, my husband said it will either nbe the making or breaking of me.... ill carry on later, my brain needs a time out

[Zaf]

Could you get someone to go with you to see your doctor?

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

I agree it may be a good idea to take someone with you to the dr's, or maybe write down how you feel and take this with you.

I am sure your hubby does not want you to move out, he probably just does not know what the best thing to do/say.

Take care

S x x

[SteveW]

I don’t usually reply to posts but yours worried me. Someone who is getting regular suicidal thoughts and has actually got as far as even vaguely thinking about how, has to be under the active care of a medical professional. I would have no worries at all about “the ramblings of a mad woman”. GPs are completely used to everything from in growing toenails to serious psychiatric illness.

Feeling regularly suicidal is a terrible place to be and you are likely to need help getting out of that place. Nobody on this site can possibly know the sources of help available in your area but your GP will have them all at his fingertips. I really hope you make an appointment sooner rather than later.

[Got]

Please go to see the GP. You are not the ramblings of a mad women, and your doctor will have heard this many times.

The way you feel now, your perceptions, are formed whilst depressed. You should not throw yourself under a train, you have a husband and children. Please seek help froma GP, dont hurt yourself.

Love Steve X