Hello from Wales

[Jane]

Hi, I'm a mum of 3 and wife of 1. I'm a mature uni student who is struggling recently with lack of energy, motivation and generally have found at times I just want to hide from everything and everyone. I'm finding my bodies lack of energy hard, and also that my mind is wandering onto suicidal thoughts - I hate them as I don't feel 'unhappy' when I'm not tired and have too much to live for to be contemplating ways to die.  This is not all the time - which is a bit confusing - and seems to be related to my monthly cycle so my Dr is exploring PMS at the moment. I am 4 days into taking 150mg of Vitamin B6 as he feels this will help lift my energy / concentration and shift my tiredness. I am waiting patiently and hopefully so thought I'd join here to see if anyone has seen success with B6 or not.

I suffered from undiagnosed depression in my early teens and through till my early 20's on and off. I don't know how you term it but I actively tried to take my own life at 15 but was never encouraged to engage with counselling or anything back then. Again I had a 'rough patch' nearly 12 years ago when my mother died (she - as my lone parent was the original basis for my depression; she was mentally and physically abusive toward me). I was left with a lot of emotions etc that I could not channel once she'd gone. I almost wrecked my marriage and fought hard to sort myself out during that time. Unfortunately counselling took a year to be offered and by that time I refused it.
I later had CBT as part of a weight study (looking at emotional eating), which did help and reconfirmed that I'd 'moved on' and dealt with a lot of my issues. Weight continues to be one I have though - I have lost nearly 5 stone in the last decade (yo-yo'ing a bit in that time due to my youngest being born and gaining a lot in pregnancy) so am not in a bad place weight wise but would still like to lose more.

gosh this is a blurb. I'll cut it short now.

Hope to see some progress during the month and am back with my GP in a month about the B6 supplementation - just hope it helps - I have uni assignments before then!

[Buttercup]

Hi and welcome to the forum :)

Glad that you're seeing your GP.

[Jane]

Thanks buttercup. I found it amazingly hard to go and talk to my GP I must admit but he was lovely so hopefully I can get back to him ok later in the month.

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome :)

Z xx

[KateG]

Hi Jane and welcome

[Sweetpea]

Hello Jane and welcome to the forum.

S x

[Jane]

Thanks all for the warm welcome.

Shaz - love your cat!  ^&^ I have a mostly white cat (wth tabby bits) and find her face so cute for being white. I love my  ^&* 's  too.

[Sweetpea]

I have 2 cats one is mostly white with a black tail and his brother is black and white.  Have 2 dogs too and I love them to bits too.

S x

[Jane]

Aww lovely, I'm more of a dog person - our cat is for catching rats / mice from the field behind our garden - stops them coming down into our garden too. We have two terriers who are far too domesticated to do the catching. lol I have a New Forest pony too :) but he lives 5 miles away. :)

[Sweetpea]

My cats are hopeless don't catch anything  .  Our dogs are spaniels a cocker and a springer.  We have other animals too.  Animals are good I think for people that suffer with depression, they can be so comforting.

S x

[Jane]

Yes I think so. I had a bad time as a teen and my dog really got me through a lot. He was the one I worried most about that he wouldn't be ok if I wasn't around. didn't help all the time but definately made a difference. He was great for crying on. I have done that on my horse too though.. just walked into his field and leaned on him, sobbed my heart out and he just stood there bless him.

I do think they understand us when we're happy and sad too.

[Sweetpea]

I so agree, my dog was so good when I was first ill (only had the one dog then) she would just sit with me when I was curled up shaking and crying, she asked nothing of me she was just there for me.

S x

[Ezel]

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