21 Feels alone with no future

[dsk1990]

Hi everyone.

I have not gone to a doctor yet for a chat to see if i am diagnosed with depression but i am down all the time.

It has been since October Last year. I am currently finishing my final year of college and have been struggling for money. With no financial help from the government i have to depend on my parents, which i might add i am lucky, I feel that at 21 i should be supporting myself financially. I have been trying to find a job since December 2010 and finding it extremely difficult now to go on with no money at all.

I feel that i cannot connect to people including my friends about anything they talk about even if it relates my problems or interests, i just feel that i am an outsider of a large group.

Me and my fiancee split up in December 2011 and after 6 years i have found it incredibly difficult to get over it and move on. recently she has come back into my life and we're talking a lot. However she is now with a new boyfriend and i am finding it very difficult because i am still madly in love with her and want her back.


I days were i'm feeling good. but mostly i have bad days and that's when I have no motivation, I eat to try and make myself feel better. I cannot remember the last time i had a decent night sleep. I am always putting on a fake smile to people to make them think i'm okay when really i feel miserable.

I am studying music at the moment so when i play music i feel a lot better but i feel down again afterwards. its kinda like a sugar rush High then Low.

Can anyone relate to how i am feeling?
should i see a doctor?

Thanks

dsk1990

[Zaf]

Hi, I would say see your doctor

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Hi, I would agree go and have a chat with your dr.

S x

[Buttercup]

Hi, I agree with Shaz and Zaf  &*(

[Got]

Hi mate,

Seems like you are going through a rough time. Sorry to hear that you split with your fiancee. It is increadibly tough having to deal with things like that.

My advice agrees with the others, you could go to see your doctor and be as honest as you can. It could just be that you are going through a rough patch. If you really are struggling, perhaps you could consider some medication to help, perhaps even some counselling if it is on offer.

Take care young chap,

Steve

[KateG]

Hi and welcome to the forum, I definitely think you should go and see your GP

It's tough when you split up with someone because you can't just switch your feelings off

[lightenup]

Hi and welcome, please go and see your Dr it is better to be sorted out earlier than letting it fester two long.  You have been going through a difficult time.  As a parent I have dealt with my sons heartbreak, and they now laugh and say I was right when I said when the time is right you will find the perfect relationship, also I am sure your parents wouldn't fund your education if they couldn't.  It broke my heart when my sons went away to uni but I was also so proud of them.  Please believe me when I say you have lots to live for :) I know it may not seem that great at the moment