so tired

[Matface_lost_in_you]

hi, i'm new. i'm suicidal and depressed. too tired to explain tho

[Ezel]

 ^&*  please get yourself to your doctor asap

[shakyelvis]

explain, its worth it.

[Mr DM]

give it a go, just start typing! or get on the phone

[Matface_lost_in_you]

Just so bored with life. Nothing good seems to happen, just get bombarded with &$%+ all the time. Starting to just feel numb all the time, at least i think i am... either that or i just wish i couldnt feel anything. I dont really know.
It's like im living and going through each day for no reason other than getting one day closer to the day that i die.
I don't know if i want to kill myself, don't know if i will or not. I guess i'm just gonna wait it out a while and see.
God i hate people, all they do is betray you and let you down when you need them. And they dont even realise... either that or they just don't care.
I'm not too sure why i've sought out this site to be honest. I don't really know whether it'll help or not; guess i'm just lonely sometimes Cos nobody seems to understand what its really like to hate living so bad you want to just give in and stop, it would be nice to find some people that do for a change. Everyone i've opened up to seems to have shuned me for feeling this way - like I dont mean what i say, that it's just some sort of pathetic attention seeking. Sometimes i just want to prove them wrong. I dont know... dont really know much nowadays. Thanks for the replies btw

[littlebeing]

You say you don't know why you joined this site but I think maybe you are trying to find someone that understands. Same as me.

I am not sure exactly how you feel but I know that I feel like a zombie. I am not living but merely existing. I do not have a life but just try to get to the next day. I tried to fight my depression for months but eventually it overwhelmed me. I could not sleep. I was constantly tired and unable to concentrate. Are you getting moaned at that your work is not good enough and you are not being productive but wasting time. Do you feel like no one understands and that you are completely alone. Although you want someone to understand you also want to be left alone. I went from constantly crying to being unable to cry, which was worse. It was like I could no longer feel anything and I found myself thinking about hurting myself all the time. All my thoughts were of pain and death and I knew this was wrong. That it was not normal but it was just how I was. People around me were saying I was miserable and lazy and I became very short tempered. I literally wanted to lock myself in my bedroom and never come out. The world was better off without me. You are not alone. People do understand.

Are you taking or doing anything to try and combat your depression?
Do you have any support?