Hi all, someone help me!

[mr_c]

Hi all, Brand new to the forum and (Knowingly) to depression.

Like i said im brand new to this and honestly dont know where to start, ive always known that i was depressed but only have admitted it to myself recently after i tried to commit suicide after my Fiance left me. Since then i was admitted to hospital put on daily visits by the local crisis team, started on antidepressents (Which arent working) and now docs think i could be bipolar

I was diagnosed when i was 13 as having ADHD which i belive to be wrong im 26 now. Im constantly up for one week and then severley down the next. Feelings of worthlessness, self hate, loathing,suicidal thoughts when im down, when im up hyper,no sleep,wreckless, over spend to a degree that im always broke and feelings of addictions to things i dont even enjoy!

This has been the pattern all my life and honestly im so sick of it i just wish i would go to sleep and never wake up. Ive managed to lose everyone ive ever loved because of the way i am. Evertime time i try to turn my life around i just end up going down the same road again.

Its taken me to lose the love of my life to finally hold my hands up and say I NEED HELP!

Any advice would be greatly appreciated, i can go into detail as i can see this is quite vague.

Thanks for reading

[crystalmagpie]

Hi Hun,

I can't really relate to the Bipolar Disorder, but I can to the feeling of helplessness. It is not your fault what you are going through, and it is not your fault that people let you down. There are a lot of flaky people out there who can't be bothered to be there for the bad times and that says more about them than it does about you.

How is your relationship with your parents? x x x x x x