Really need help

[kezza27]

Hi guys i am new here but i really need help or advice

at the moment i just dont want to be on this earth, i know i sound selfish but i really cant take it anymore, i feel so scared and lonely that it is so hard to get through the day at the moment.  i am a mum to 3 kids, my 15 year old has asd and other problems, i also have a 14 year old that is hormonal and my son is 9 years old he has asd and adhd.  life is so hard at the moment, everyday is a struggle.  i suffer from fibromyalgia and am in constant pain, this is a nightmare.  I just feel like i am a burden to my hubby and kids and that their lives would be alot happier if i was not here.

I dont know what to do anymore............ where do i go from here. 

[Lol]

Oh No Kezza27 I'm so sorry you feel this way. You are coping with a lot! There is no one I know that could sale through what you are dealing with daily with ease. It's ok to feel the way you do, as in give yourself permission to feel these feelings because they are a reaction to your situation, but, at the same time they are a bit of an over-reaction through no fault of your own. In answer to your question where do I go from here, I think you go to your doctors and explain how al this is making you feel and see what he/she says and follow their advice.

Life is very hard at the moment and it's so difficult for you to get through each day. You feel trapped in a bad dream without a waya to wake up. But you can wake up, you can beat how you are feeling and most importantly you must believe that you are certainly NOT a burden to your family, they love you very much and their lives would not be happier, but devastated if you weren't here. Please don't devastate their lives Kezza, sit your hubby down and tell him that there is something very important that you need him to listen to and try to understand. They tell him what you have just told us. Let him support you. You need plenty of support.

I hope we can be of help in your difficult journey. You will be happy again.

Take Care
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[Ezel]

You've got a lot on your plate so little wonder you are struggling.  It's nothing to be ashamed about and it's good you have opened up here.  Does your husband know how you're feeling?  If you haven't just show him what you have written.

[kezza27]

yeah my hubby now knows, he is worried about me but i just feel life is not worth living at the moment

[Lol]

You feel that life is not worth living at the moment. It's such a sad feeling. Let your husband take care of you and try to open up as much as you can. It's ok to tell him that you feel you want to end your life. aslo tell him what you're goig to do about that. Have a conversation. It;s important that its not taboo and you are able to tell him how you feel abuot it. It is natural for him to feel worried. He loves you.

[Zaf]

I'm not surprised you feel so bad,  your life must be a struggle with all that going on,  may I ask if yo've been to see your GP about how you feel?

[tarle1976]

I am the husband of the depressed and even after all the illness has put us through she is a wife and mother and a good one my kids would be destroyed if she went through with her plan to end it.hope u feel better soon.

[Glen53]

To you both, you dont have to go through this alone.

Im suffering badly right now with depression and my wife is my rock. We have been through many ups and downs and we will try to advise you if we can. Just ask.

My first impressions? Kezza, you have come onto a forum of strangers and asked for help. RESPECT. Thats not easy to do but its a big step towords recovery.
Tarle1976 - Its humbling to see you come here to ask advice in how to cope and support your wife and family. You must love your wife very much and its a big move to make, especially if you dont understand depression well. It can be scary if you dont.

To you both, I wish you all the best. If you want any advice, then just ask. This forum has some wonderful people here who are the kindest you could ever hope to meet. Between them they have a lot of experience to call on that just may help you.

[Lol]

How are you feeling now Kezza?