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General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Lol on August 28, 2011, 04:43:03 PM
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Hi My name is Lol. In a nutshell I have been mixed up for a long time and never really new why. I have felt misunderstood and have had various social and trust issues. On the outside I am completely normal, very ambitious and successful, sociable, well regarded, but inside I just crave stability, acceptance and security. I convey a self secure, together exterior. But I am not. I am always there for other people and have done such a job of being other people's 'rock' that no one is mine and I don't know how to let them be. I started to see a therapist because I just needed to talk to somebody who didn't know me and wouldn't be shocked at how 'untogether' I actually was. I went with utterly mixed feelings and emotions and basically a very confusing childhood with a bullying sister was to blame. I am now having to deal with this in my 30's because no one could see it at the time. It is bringing up some really painful memories, and because I had always been taught that what I was experiencing was 'normal' and 'to be endured' I really didn't realise that it was the reason for becoming a person I am not happy being. Now I am on the road to discovery and hopefully recovery and it is very difficult. I have long suffered and been treated for depression. I am now having to deal with my partner of 8 years own depression (for her first time) and things are going pair shaped and fast. I am here to keep a perspective. That what we are all dealing with is not just in our heads (pardon the pun) but are real problems with real feelings, and, hopefully, real solutions. Hearing other people going through stuff and seeing the occasional success story helps us to feel less alone. We are not alone. Lets keep talking and supporting each other. Lol x.
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Welcome lol, everyone will help as much as they can, sometimes just being able to let it all out helps as well as reading other people's experiences.
After a few good days something has happened to unsettle me so cant really give a proper answer but I'm sure you'll get more welcomes but with a proper contribution :)
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Thanks for your reply Zaf. I'm sorry you are feeling unsettled at the moment. Just to have had a reply from you is supportive thanks.
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Hi lol and welcome :)
Depression is very very good at making us all form a different side to our characters - like an outer shell that we let the world see. Unfortunately, the person on the inside isn't as 'together' as others may think.
I'm really tired today after doing a night shift last night so probably will just babble nonsense :P But please 'make yourself at home' so to speak :) We're all here to help and support each other - and yes, talking and sharing is very very helpful!
Nay x
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hey n welcome
so probably will just babble nonsense :P
Nay x
like always :P
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hey n welcome
so probably will just babble nonsense :P
Nay x
like always :P
Yeah....being on the forum you'll have to get used to someones sense of humour! ;) xx
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Thanks all I've already found you very supportive. Sometimes my issues feel so insignificant compared to what other people are going through but the fact is I can't get my head around them and they are destroying parts of my life so I guess it's all relative? Thanks everyone.
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I've felt that in the past about myself but I dont think anyone's problems are insignificant, we are all in need of support in our own way and i've found to talk things over that actually understand how this illness affects us is often immensely helpful.