Depression Forums
General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Jam1 on June 05, 2011, 02:46:09 PM
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Hi everyone,
Never joined a forum before, but running out of ideas for things that can help. I am 25 and have suffered from depression for most of my life, I remember being 5 years old and feeling really really unhappy for no reason. As I have got older, I have been fairly successful in terms of achievements, graduated from university with a good degree, been working in a good job and I have a nice family and good friends (although few). I just have such low self-esteem and don't seem to enjoy anything ever. I see other people out enjoying their lives and I know I should be the same but I feel so empty inside. Many of my family members suffer with clinical depression and I was diagnosed at 16 and have been on and off medication ever since. I am currently on cipralex and have been for the past 2 years, I feel it helps things slightly and am too afraid to even try coming off it. I have started cbt sessions but so far these have not helped.
I just feel so alone in the way I feel, I don't feel that I can talk to my family about how I feel as I just don't feel comfortable with it and I don't feel my friends really understand what I am going through inside my head. I have a boyfriend who has suffered in the past with depression, however he is not one for talking about feelings and I haven't pushed the subject as we have only been together 2 months. I feel like my life is passing me by as I can not get the motivation to do anything. I'm not really enjoying my job and just feel things are never going to change.
It's strange sharing this information with essentially a bunch of strangers, but I figure there are people out there who understand what I am going through.
Will be good to talk to people who really understand. :'(
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Hi Jam, glad u have joined the forum then!
I too have been depressed since the youngest I can remember and have been on and off lots of different meds. When you say you find it hard to talk to people about how you're feeling I know exactly how you feel where would you start???!! I can not even begin to start explaining how I actually feel -just know it's really grim, I don't enjoy anything anymore, and my motivation (which has been good from time to time)is non existant, and I am stuck in a dark, hopeless pit...
Not really easy to converse!!
Anyway message me if you want to chat
Em xx
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I know this feeling all too well also. I always find it much easier to talking to complete strangers online other than friends and family who don't really understand. I hope you find happiness, at least you have a boyfriend who you can relate to. I always imagine it'd be easier to find a girl who knows the pain or at least understands mine, who won't feel disgusted by the cuts on my arm or my lack of motivation to want to fit in.
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A warm welcome to the forum Jam, always someone on to chat on here, and who understands.