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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: debsk83 on May 09, 2011, 08:13:36 PM
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Been depressed for a while now but only seen the doctor about it last week. Got a week off work however although I felt better than I had i still feel that its not budging. All I want is to get back to normality and back to work. I am so worried about how long it will take to feel better. Had depression about ten years ago so I knew the signs and I do know that I can get through it. I was hoping that I would be back to work in under a week. Just worried that it is going to take a while. I hate being off work. I feel that I can't even think properly even when I try. I will be seeing the doctor again on Thursday. I am really trying to avoid going on medication for this but I'm worried that this may be the only option.
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Hello Deb,
Sorry that you're going through such a rough time.
As I've learned to my cost, the classic 'mistake' when dealing with depression is to fight it in a desperate attempt to return to 'normal'. I'm going through it for the nth time myself. However I do find being on medication helps to support the recovery. It sounds like it might do you some good, just to help you to get back on track.
I understand what you mean about being off work. I don't like it either, especially as I genuinely like my job. However after some time I've started to recognise that I sometimes have to stop. You have to be kind to yourself; it's the only way 'normality' will ever come.
Even though I've had depression for some years, compared to where I was I'm doing so much better (though I have to remind myself of that periodically). By learning when I need to stop and when perhaps I need extra support (either people or medication) I can 'manage' it. When I have low points, I do find myself wishing I could just be 'normal'. But when I'm having good periods, boy does it feel good. And maybe I appreciate it more because of the low points?
Basically what I'm saying is, don't be afraid to allow yourself recovery time and be kind to yourself. Don't see medication as a weakness (if that's what you're thinking). I empathise a lot with what you're saying, and it's hard to accept that you need to, just for a bit, slow down.
I hope it works out for you - there is a light there, and some way you'll get to it :)
Ses
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Hi I was just wondering why it is that you are so concerned about being on medication and wear your concerns are coming from?
please dont be scared about the medication process because the meds can be really helpful and make a life of depression a lot easier
smirfy21
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I'm really concerned that I will be on them for a long time and also worried that I would possibly feel numb and not know when I truly am happy on them. I know this may sound a bit silly. I think it's just mainly the thought of them. I was hoping I would feel much better once I sorted out what I felt had triggered it but I still can's shift the feeling. Htae not being able to think. I have so much I need to do but I just can't.
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Thats a valid concern and you are not alone.
when I first began to suffer from depression the last thing I wanted to do was go to my GP because I was petrafied of being medicated as all I had been told by my family was that I would have no emotions and no personality and that my GP would label me as mentaly unstable so I didn't go I suffered for two years and completely ruined my own life bit by bit. when I finaly did go and see my GP he was really understanding and perscribed me fluoxetine and after a couple of weeks I felt like this light had finaly been turned on in my head and I began to feel good about life; admitadly it took about a year and a lot of councelling before I began to feel like the depression was lifted but it was worth it.
at least try the medication your GP perscribes for a couple of months and see how you feel because I really believe that it can help along the road to recovery, I would also suggest seeing a shrink aswell otherwise there really is no point of taking the meds because they only help to take the edge off of the depression they dont remove the condition all together.
please give it a go and dont suffer unnecessarily
smirfy21
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Been put on beta blockers for anxiety. Can;t seem to control the anxiety. Got another sick note for a week but I think it will take a while. Seems to be never ending. Hope the anxiety ends soon so I can feel like I can get on with my life. Feels like I am on hold. I am thinking of seeing how i am in a few days and discuss the option of antidepressants and also about extending my sick note longer to avoid keep getting it re extended. I am trying to avoid not being paid but I know I need this time to get myself better and back to normal.