Depression Forums
General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Spooky on February 28, 2011, 12:21:08 PM
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Hiya folks,
Just trying to do something positive and start talking to people!
I'm currently going through my third episode of depression. First time was when I was 17 and I took a course of prozac and counselling, then 25 where I just took counselling now I'm 30 and its just getting more complicated. Was prescribed 20mgs of citalopram last April which was doubled in October because despite working initially I just found my mood was starting to slip. Now I'm getting help privately and I've just started on cipralex (last week) however I was back at the doctors today and they've doubled my dose and signed me off from work for two weeks as I'm finding I've lost enthusiasm for pretty much everything including eating/drinking. My boyfriend and my pets are the only real influences on my life keeping me going. I'm not suicidal but sometimes I really want to take sleeping pills just so I can sleep through and hope to wake up with the strength to deal with stuff.
I've been asked to attend the local private clinic as a day patient for group therapy which scares the hell out of me, I don't know if I can really open up to a room full of strangers. All I wanted was 1 to 1 counselling to get everything out but no one seems to listen to me and its really frustrating.
Does anyone also worry about how they are percieved at work? I've had to take time off to deal with this and now I'm signed off but worry that because no one can see a physical ailment that they just think I'm out for some 'free holiday' or that I'm lazy and thats stressing me out a little.
Hope this all makes sense, it feels a little jumbled!!
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Hey Spooky,
I can identify will how your feeling, as iam much the same.
I find people at college might not understand and while i'm trying to keeping things rolling i may need to take time out myself.
Your not alone as this site will show, and hopefully give you some comfort just knowing that. :)
Will
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A warm !"£ welcome to the forum, getting enough sleep is part of the healing process or should I say quality sleep :)
BTW Spooky don't think I could handle the group things, maybe they are pushing your bounderies
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Hi Spooky, !"£ to the forum; I hope it helps you.
I was scared how people at work would see me, so I carried on. Big mistake! I ended up nearly losing my job because I became so difficult in the office, although I always did my work well. Can you explain to your boss, or a colleague, a little of what's going on with you. You may find someone sympathetic; more people have suffered with depression than is generally realised, because we all keep it hidden. "£$
Group therapy sounds pretty scary to me too. Surely if you've gone private you should be able to get what you want?!
Best wishes, bel
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Thanks for your replies! Its always good to know that there are other people out there that feel the same.
I've been referred on the NHS for 1 to 1 counselling finally and start my therapy sessions on Thursday so will let you know how it goes. Perhaps the group therapy won't be so bad afterall......