Depression Forums
General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Confused on February 07, 2011, 07:36:19 PM
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I don't understand, why does this happen? I've had depression for over two years now and just when I think I have it all under control up it comes again. I've had five different counsellors and three different doctors this year alone. Finally thought everything was going up and now it comes crashing down. I can't take this again, it's ruining my job and my life! maybe i need more medication, is 400mg Trazodine too much already, what if I made it five. Grrrr whats going on, my head is spinning and i can't think straight. I need it all to stop. What's wrong with me!????
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hi Confused and welcome to the forum :). I joined yeasterday, i dont realy know when my depression started but its creeped up on me and i think back and its been a long time. Its confusing and frushtraiting. I cant answer your question, and ive only just got help in the last 3 weeks. Im on zopyclone at the moment to help me sleep untill i get assesed. People on this forum have felt/feel the way you do including myself, and ive felt that interacting with the members hear has helped me and i feel ive found people that have a common ground. feel free to rant about how you feel on the forum, i have been and its been quite theraputic.
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Hi Confused and !"£, Shenanigans has given good advice. Diagnosed about 18 months ago but looking back I was probably ill a year before, just put it all down to stress of work and life and being actually a stong person for too long.
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Thanks, I just don't know how much longer I can take it. So fed up with it all now, I want to turn the light out and make it all go away. I can;t handle these feelings anymore, I want to cry all the time, I hate myself and I hate the way I am with others. I am a teacher and I can;t be like this with the kids its not fair!
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Hi confused, I am not very well at the moment and believe the people on this forum will all understand. I am so stressed and the moment and off for a medical tomorrow, all I am doing is crying at the moment. But you must try and hold on to something positive at the forfront of your mind, I always carry the lifeline number with me if I get too distressed, but can call my counsellor at CBT through the week. Other times when I am stressed I take my meds and sleeping pill and go to bed early. My friend has just rang to tell me some distressing news, this just shows me how little of and idea she has about my illness, to be honest I don't know whether to laugh or cry re her phone call. The one thing I know is that I am going to fight this demon and win.
Just a though, I know teaching is a distressing occupation, but also a rewarding one keep the happy thoughts and smiling facing or funny moments in your minds eye, so something you enjoy or listen to favourite your favourite music. Take care
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Sorry to hear the situation you're in.
I would have recommended a Doc but you've been there already big time.
You should definitely consult the Doc if you're thinking of upping your intake of pills though. Nobody should ever get dependent on
those horrible things.
Don't worry about the crying thing, the best two ways to let pent up emotions out, are laughter and tears. Never anger or doubt.
Crying is a good thing, don't hold back and think "why am I crying?".
If you need the toilet, you wouldn't hold it for the sake of holding it.
Let it out. Your body obviously needs the release (so to speak).
Personally, for gathering my thoughts, I've found a big help is music, especially when I sit in a dark room with my eyes closed.
Something with a melody and a decent riff in the middle.
Queen, Aerosmith, Paloma Faith (though these are my own preferences!!).
One artist in particular is french musician Wally Badarou and his Echoes album. It's hard to get hold of these days but if you can get a copy, do so.
Good luck.
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Hi Confused, and !"£
Sometimes it does come back to bite you when you thought it was getting better. Don't be too hard on yourself when that happens. Hopefully it gets less frequent as you get better. I can't add to the good advice from the guys on here. Look after yourself. bel
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Thank you everyone.
I really needed to rant yesterday. Had a total melt down at work, which in my job is not great and just needed to cry it out. I have counselling on a friday and last weeks we horrible, I don't think I will ever get used to that. But I didn't have a chance to let it out and it brewed all weekend then at work on monday all I wanted to do we cry.
I think these forums are wonderful and it;s so helpful to be able to just let it all out and not to worry about what you say because you know everyone will understand.
Thank you all.
xx