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General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Gary21 on December 19, 2012, 07:13:20 PM

Title: Hello
Post by: Gary21 on December 19, 2012, 07:13:20 PM

Hi everyone,

Another new person here, who is really struggling at the moment, well for the last few months really. Everyday just seems to throw more and more torment my way, and I hate it, hate myself and hate my life. Today has been really bad and again I just want to go to sleep and stay that way as yet again I'm dreading tomorrow. I think the only thing keeping in me going is that my parents are still around, and I can't imagine how they'd be if I wasn't here. By the way they don't know how I'm feeling but it is really hard keeping a brave face in front of them. And now with Christmas is so close just makes things even worse. I am having counselling and only last week started medication, first time for about a decade, though  I think I feel worse now than I did all those years ago. But I feel so lonely at the moment, and I'm getting so teary just writing this.

Gary

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Sweetpea on December 19, 2012, 07:18:59 PM

Big  %^% for you Gary. The forum is lovely, you will find a lot of friendly support here. Welcome  +-_.

S x x x x

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Gary21 on December 19, 2012, 07:41:47 PM

Thank you Shaz, a lovely welcome. Today I thought I was doing the right thing again, and felt good until around 3 when as normal my whole life felt as if it was crumbling down when I had a phone call and the one lady I'd like in my life I've scared off and she got her boss to phone me and warn me off, now I've got to go to work again tomorrow and I'm scared stiff. I just can't seem to do anything right. Just looked at the clock 7.30, so 12 hours before work and probably another whole couple of hours sleep, that's pointless too going to bed but when I am asleep I just wish I could stay like that. I think I need Friday to get here to see my counsellor again, though I think shes going to be disappointed in me that I have messed up again........she is understanding mostly though.

Gary

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Zaf on December 19, 2012, 07:56:24 PM

Hi and welcome Gary  *()

Hang in there till you see your counsellor and try to explain your feelings honestly

Z xxx

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Pip on December 19, 2012, 08:19:09 PM

Hi and welcome  +-_

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Gary21 on December 19, 2012, 08:55:24 PM

Cheers Zaf and Pip, it means a lot that there are others who understand and care. I may be here for a while......

Title: Re: Hello
Post by: Catbrian on December 19, 2012, 09:00:19 PM

Hi Gary and welcome to the Forum. I hope things start to improve for you soon