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Title: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 20, 2012, 11:54:24 AM

I know it's my depression talking but I just keep thinking I'm not going to get better.
Day 35 of crossover of meds and I don't understand why at first I got such a lift from taking venlafaxin again (sleeping like a baby and eating 3 times a day again). This lasted for 2-3 weeks and now that I am not taking citalopram anymore I am feeling crappy crap again. Doc says it's normal as it takes a long time and I can't expect to get better in a few weeks but I just would like to know that the treatment is going to work and that I am going to be able to be back to my normal self again!!!
This is tough :(

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: Tacey on November 20, 2012, 12:08:30 PM

No wise words I'm afraid, but  %^% for a tough situation.  I find it helps me to keep thinking very small.  What ifs are exhausting, but get you nowhere.  Hope tomorrow is a better day.

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 20, 2012, 12:10:49 PM

Thank you xx

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: mat on November 20, 2012, 01:38:02 PM

I understand I'n a way  your mind is always telling you that things won't get better  and you start to on that viscous circle  that keeps going over again.

(http://www.drishtikone.com/wp-content/uploads/depressioncircle.gif)

And I know it is hard to try and believe that things will get better, as long as you have support  you and battle you way through it

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 20, 2012, 01:42:47 PM

Thanks Mat, it is so tough, I don't understand why I progressed so nicely when I was first put on venlafaxin and 2 weeks later massive low :(

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: lampy on November 21, 2012, 10:10:50 PM

I hope you feel better soon! Xx.

 Lampy

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 22, 2012, 05:00:27 PM

Thank you Lampy!!

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: Catbrian on November 22, 2012, 06:12:53 PM

How you doing today Book?

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 22, 2012, 09:38:24 PM

Hello!

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: bookletters on November 22, 2012, 09:41:29 PM

Hello!
Not too bad today thanks.
Had a long chat with my mum on the phone and it really reassured me because she opened up about the anxiety disorder she started to have when she was about my age... and the symptoms fit in with mine.... think I need to tell doc about worrying and fear as this may bring something new to the table.....

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: Sweetpea on November 23, 2012, 07:30:56 AM

Hope you are feeling better today Book  %^%.

S x x x x

Title: Re: Worried am never going to back to normal
Post by: Catbrian on November 24, 2012, 04:39:52 PM

That's very interesting, Book

We always laugh that I'm a carbon copy of my Dad, everything, absolutely everything he has, I get at roughly the same time in life.  Whether this stretches to hereditary MH issues, I'm unconvinced.