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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: Fig on November 02, 2012, 02:24:30 AM
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Hello....I'm struggling right now. I'm trying hard, but I just can't shake this heavy feeling, this dark sadness. I get up every day (I have to..I have 6 birds to take care of, and if it weren't for them I'd be way worse off), get washed and dressed, make my bed. I go downstairs to have a cigarette. (I live in a highrise apartment building). Around 8am I go down the hall to my boyfriend's apartment to have coffee. At least 1 day a week I go to my volunteer job at the zoo (I'm a docent--that's an educator). I keep my apartment clean and neat.
So you see, I'm functional, and not totally isolated. I live alone, but I have my beloved birds and a couple of friends. I read a lot, watch TV, play around on the computer. My sleep is poor, though, as is my eating. I do have an eating disorder..I greatly restrict my food or fast. I have anxiety and this pervasive depression. I just feel lost...........
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Depression is a dreadful illness isn't it. You can't always put your finger on what is making you feel so bad, so there's no clue as to what you should do to start feeling better. You seem to be doing everything right, functioning perfectly. I hope that things just begin to click for you. (That's no help at all, is it?)
Has Hurricane Sally troubled you at all? It has caused such devestation, and from the other side of the Atlantic, it looks so close to where you are.
Best wishes.