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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: Marie1991 on September 12, 2012, 06:13:13 PM
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I am so angry. Open the door- theres my mum, first thing shes says ''Have you done the dishes that were left''
I'm the one who ALWAYS does the dishes- this might sound so so petty when you first read this, but its one of the most frustrating things. I'm the one who does the dishes all the time in this dam house which is a point I've just told the mum- No you don't I did them last night. OH WELL DONE!! YOU ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING RATHER THEN BARKING ORDERS AT PEOPLE. I am NOT appreciated in this house at all. I've been doing research today for college that was set for Monday but my mums response is- No you havent, you only went back the other day. So because i only went back the other day that means i havent been set anything to do. I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW HER BRAIN WORKS!!!
The feeling I have right now- PURE ANGER, sad, upset, down, I want to lash out so much. This feeling is getting worse and wose everytime something happens because i bottle up how i feel. The feeling of- whats actually the point.
''We've noticed your attude recently'' My attitude...Ive been keeping to myself, a new way i'm trying out to get me through my last year at college. I literally havent done anything wrong at all.
My boyfriend was actually allowed to come down Saturday just gone- we cooked for ourselves, cleaned up and put everything away. Apart from the deep fryer. I went to work the next day and nothing was mentioned until my mum was back from her trip, infront of her my stepdad said...''Oh are you going to put this away now'' WHY CANT SOMEONE ELSE PUT IT AWAY....LIKE I DO WITH EVERYONES STUFF ALL THE TIME. its a dig infront of my mum asif i dont do anything. WHEN I DO!!
I have seriously had enough and dont know what to do anymore.
They gang up on me ALL the time. IM EXPECTED TO DO EVERYTHING BECAUSE ''IF YOU LIVE IN THIS HOUSE THEN YOU HAVE TO'' MORE little things keep on happening and i seriously dont know how much i can take of it. I HATE IT. IVE PUT UP WITH YEARS OF MIND GAMES AND CRAP I CANT KEEP DOING IT.
I CANT STAND THE PAIR OF THEM AND SO MANY PEOPLE AGREE WITH ME- THEY DONT UNDERTSNAD THEM! WHY CANT THEY SEE WHAT THERE DOING TO ME! SO WRAPPED UP IN THEIR LIFE AND LOVING THE FACT THAT THEY CONRTOL EVERYTHING I DO. " IF YOU MAKE MY LIFE DIFFICULT THEN I'LL DO THE SAME TO YOURS'' oh because i havent done YOUR washing today!!!!!!!!
I JUST WANT TO CRY MY EYES OUT. AND SCREAM.
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((((( big hugs ))))) this is horrible for you. You really do not deserve to be treated like this. At least you can rant here. S x x x x
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I've calmed down a bit now, went for walk. I came back and everyones acting sweet as pie towards me. Its really messes with my head. If I want things to change, I need to change it. My college can help me out with accommodation which i really think im going to go ahead with. Id rather struggle a little but be happy. I havent felt happiness in such a long long time. i miss it
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Glad you have calmed down. I think if the college can help with accommodation then that would be a good idea. As you say it will be better to struggle and be happy. S x x x x
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I really do love this forum- everyone is so nice and supportive. xxx
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It is lovely. Everyone understand here :). S x x x x
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I think shaz is right about college accommodation if they can help
Z xx
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Marie, I agree with the others. Being in this situation isn't healthy so going into college accommodation seems a good option. Your health needs to come first.
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Hope they can help Marie x