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Depression Related Forums => Depression Central => Topic started by: oceansdeep on August 30, 2012, 12:08:51 AM
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Just.... I need to be stronger than this. I need to get it together. I need to be able to cope with what's happening. And I can't. I'm not strong enough. And people are mistaking the sedation from ADs as calmness and serenity and it's not. I can't do this but I have to. I'm sorry. You don't even know me and have your own stuff going on.I even fooled my counsellor that things were okay. I managed not to cry, to appear okay and detached and in control and she suggested a break. How could I correct her. But I'm lost, I don't know what's going on or where I'm going and I have to wake up in the morning and be strong and be okay and I don't know if I can do it.
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Hi Ocean. I'm sorry you're in such a bad place at the moment. I haven't got any solution I can offer, just hang in there for the moment, and I feel sure that somebody with a bit more common sense than I have at the moment will be able to be more constructive and helpful. For the moment, please be sure that I'm thinking of you, and sympathise with the spot you're in. Take care. Best wishes, always.
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Oceans,
Please don't beat yourself up, you don't need to be strong (although I'm sure you're stronger than you realise). Just try to keep yourself safe until this passes. Think back to a time when you felt better, whether that's hours, days or months ago, and try to keep hope that you will be there again. Everyone on here is willing to help and offer support, it doesn't matter that we have our own things going on, it makes us all the more willing to support each other. You are not alone.
xx
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Thank you. I feel less hysterically upset now, and more tired and drained. I have to make it through Friday without any outward signs that things aren't okay. Friday is about being there for a friend, it is completely not about me but I don't know if I have the inner resources to hold it together.
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While its fantastic of you to hold things together Friday for a friend, after that you really need to be honest with your counsellor how things really are or she wont be able to help you
Z xxx
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Being honest with the counsellor will help towards being able to be there for your friend.
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Good luck for Friday Ocean, but don't forget your own legitimate needs and concerns. I hope that your friend can be there for you when you need a little support. I feel certain that the people here on the site will help you with comfort and maybe just listening. Best wishes.
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I think that we all have these damned low points whilst we suffer with this terrible condition, but it's nice to have the support of people in this forum.
Together we can beat this!! :vik:
Hang in there mate, you are not alone