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Title: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Rumple on August 15, 2012, 09:21:32 PM
    I am a 55 yr. old artist/musician who is still fighting this major depressive illness. I think I just feel too much.  I help people out and get betrayal in exchange and it makes me wary of expressing my emotions. I'm sick of the dog eat dog "competitive" culture that we live in.  I have a lot to offer, yet I'm not pushy about it so I get steamrollered by loudmouths with no talent. Care to talk anyone?
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Sweetpea on August 15, 2012, 09:26:03 PM
Hello and I totally understand what you said. S x x x x
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Zaf on August 15, 2012, 09:26:47 PM
Hi and welcome Rumple  *()

Ive been fighting it for years too

Z xx
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Dianosaur on August 15, 2012, 09:38:39 PM
It's been a long time for me too (15yrs) and it can be so exhausting.
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Zaf on August 15, 2012, 09:40:51 PM
its been 12 years for me and its a horrible illness :(

Z xx
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Sweetpea on August 15, 2012, 09:54:00 PM
Been 8 years for me :(  S x x x x
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Catbrian on August 15, 2012, 09:55:38 PM
Hi rumple.... a big welcome to you.

I'm 20yrs with depression secondary to Post Traumatic Stress and it's a 'tough old bird to swallow'

True what you say about being trampled on in exchange for our kindness.  We have a saying in Glasgow (Scotland), where I'm from.... ''Don't take my 'saftness' for daftness''... being from canada, you may not get that one.

Hope you find the Forum supportive

Cat
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: KateG on August 15, 2012, 09:57:08 PM
Hi and welcome

Kate x
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Ezel on August 15, 2012, 10:36:44 PM
Hi and welcome  *() ~ I'm sufferer of depression of about 36 / 37 years.
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: sample4444 on August 16, 2012, 06:32:11 AM
Hi I'm new here as well and everyone's been really kind :) when you say people always betray you, maybe it could be an idea to make a few new friends in a completely new circle of people? are there any art clubs or bands local to you?
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Post by: Buttercup on August 16, 2012, 07:03:26 AM
Hi and welcome. It's been 21 years for me on and off. Xxx
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Rumple on August 26, 2012, 07:10:04 PM
   I want to thank everyone who replied to my post and apologise for not replying sooner. Everyone on here seems so kind and supportive. I really didn't expect anything, and that is why I have not been on this site since posting. I was wrong and so plan to visit and post regularly. At my age, one has to wonder if this cursed disease ever goes away. I'm having such a hard time having any motivation,and moving forward in my life. I have been on anti depressants for years,and while they seem to help initially, the effect quickly wears off. The latest is a drug called effexor which was prescribed in high doses that left me addicted and struggling to get off of the stuff. I've cut way down on my dosage, but every time I try to stop completely, I get very sick and ache all over. Anyone else have experience with this?
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Zaf on August 26, 2012, 08:03:32 PM
Sorry Rumple I've no experience of it

Z xx
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Catbrian on August 26, 2012, 09:17:39 PM
Welcome back Rumple… I’m pleased you have experience of this Forum’s friendliness and support.

I’ve never heard of Effexor.  But, I do have experience of a Diazepam (valium) addiction, so can appreciate your difficulty.  What about speaking to your Doc about a Mood Stabiliser?  Initially prescribed as anti-psychotic medication.  Given in lower doses, it’s known to help lift and stabilise the mood.  I think every drug, even anti-depressants, carry various degree’s of addiction. 
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: KateG on August 26, 2012, 09:21:09 PM
Not had any experience of that one, I think we call it venlafaxine in the UK

Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Sweetpea on August 26, 2012, 09:21:35 PM
Sorry I have no experience of this. Its good to hear you will continue using the forum. Its a great place with lovely people. S x x x.
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Post by: oceansdeep on August 26, 2012, 09:33:13 PM
Hi Rumple, while I don't have any experience of effexor, someone I knew 'in real life' was taking an SNRI, I can't remember which one, a few years ago and the withdrawal effects sound similar. She did manage to come off it completely though it was hard going. Ocean
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Rumple on August 26, 2012, 10:10:41 PM
   Thank you so much folks. I'm so lonely and sad and this is a good place with good people. It's so hard to express to others how it feels to be so emotionally raw. As I age I find myself becoming ever more cynical about the world and filled with grief at how much worse things have become. On a personal level, I have been trying so hard to work things out, but the things that I am good at no longer seem to have any commercial value.  In years past, I did have a small amount of success as a creative artist, but it seems like art and music have become so devalued lately that one might as well be trying to sell dirt. I watch in horror as the world is transforming into some Orwellian economic and high tech nightmare.  All the values that I hold dear such as tolerance, gentleness, and compassion are in very short supply these days. I can't talk about this with anyone that I know, they don't get it.
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Catbrian on August 27, 2012, 12:20:15 AM
Rumple... You're cynical for good reason, especially if you've been feeling people do not return your trust and friendship.

I think many here will echo your thoughts, I certainly do.
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Got on August 27, 2012, 12:35:11 AM
Hi, nice to meet you.

I am sorry to hear the way you are struggling. It is difficult to see that we are doing anything meaningful when everything seems so empty and pointless.

I wish you well.

Steve
Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: jakers on September 14, 2012, 09:13:24 AM
Glad to find someone of a similar age on here. i am 60 and enjoy explorations into the technological age. i am excited by the idea of sharing online and also hope to try sharing other things like creative writing online. i too am a long term survivor but have had long periods of remission and have met some amazing people on my journey. As I have got older I am more able to see the "bigger picture" and no longer blame others for my illness. i hope that by taking responsilbilty and owning it as mine it will become more integrated into my whole being. Make any sense?
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Title: Re: Hello from Canada. Long term survivor here!
Post by: Sweetpea on September 14, 2012, 09:32:04 AM
Hello :) welcome to the forum. S x x x x