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Title: I am losing my mind
Post by: mamalou on July 19, 2012, 11:00:07 PM
I am totally losing my mind. I am normally asleep by now. I haven't eaten. My mind is racing, I am shaking and I feel wild. I can't go on anymore like this. It's very scarey. Really really struggling. Feel poorly.

Sorry.
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Sweetpea on July 19, 2012, 11:02:35 PM
Please don't be sorry Mamalou. Just wish I could make things right for you. Thinking of you  %^%.

S x x x x
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Beetzart on July 19, 2012, 11:24:34 PM
Thinking of you Mamalou  *()

Beet
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: woozywoo on July 19, 2012, 11:27:26 PM
Hey! Not in a good place myself,but felt I needed 2 post. I know I find it comforting knowing there is someone else there!

Have you managed 2 eat,maybe a small snack would help you settle a little,maybe enough so you could try 2 sleep!

Try 2 look after yourself hun,we are here for you x x x
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Amanda on July 19, 2012, 11:49:39 PM
Hey, awake too! U aren't alone! Sleep is over rated anyway!
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: tracey01 on July 19, 2012, 11:55:03 PM
Hiya, I'm the same have to be up at 6 too! Big hugs x %^%
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: KateG on July 20, 2012, 12:12:41 AM
Thinking of you  %^%
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Zaf on July 20, 2012, 04:58:45 AM
How are you now mamalou? xxx
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: CharleysAngel' on July 20, 2012, 07:41:17 AM
Hugs Mamalou, really feel for you xxx
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: mamalou on July 20, 2012, 11:19:06 PM
Decided I might stop therapy.  *^* Am feeling vulnerable and don't like the policy of information sharing in my care team. I am utterly devastated as I think it's the one thing that may keep my alive. Really scared now. Got a bigger prescription than normal - really tempting to down the lot.

Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: CaptainMustard on July 21, 2012, 12:44:04 AM
Hi, mamalou. I know we haven't 'met' yet, but I'm here offering you a big  %^%.

I hope you are doing okay - that you have managed to fall asleep.

If you still feel terrible when you wake up, I'd suggest locking the pills away and giving the key to a friend or family member until you next need a dose. It's what I do if I get really bad.

Hope to 'see' you soon!  *()
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Zaf on July 21, 2012, 06:56:59 AM
Stopping therapy doesnt sound a good idea, can you talk to your care team about your fears?

Z xx
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Sweetpea on July 21, 2012, 09:11:42 AM
Mamalou I so feel for you. These feelings are truely awful. S x x x x
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: CharleysAngel' on July 21, 2012, 09:17:42 AM
I don't think its a good idea to stop therapy mamalou. I understand why you sometimes feel you want to though, I don't tell my counsellor a lot of stuff in fear that it could possibly be passed on. Hugs for you xx
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: mamalou on July 21, 2012, 11:11:28 AM
Thank you for your replies. I do so appreciate the time it takes and the emotion to share. Thank you, thank you.

I was so pro therapy, but I begged my therapist not to share information yesterday. I feel she has misinterpretted what I said, but she says it is because of my growing up years experiences, that I do not have balanced view. I cried and cried and begged her to keep the information to herself, but she said that I am vulnerable and she is concerned. AAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggg I am in absolute agony and complete distress. I cannot go on with this life anymore. I just don't have the resources to keep myself "safe" in a mental way.

My body hurts and my head aches and I am just plain frightened. I want out now.
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Sweetpea on July 21, 2012, 11:28:50 AM
%^% %^% Mamalou just wish I had the words to help you. S x x x x
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: Zaf on July 21, 2012, 11:36:54 AM
I do too  %^% xxx
Title: Re: I am losing my mind
Post by: mamalou on July 21, 2012, 01:41:27 PM
Just having someone to listen is the best gift that there is. Thank you.

I'm so tired of trying to work it out.