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General => The Lounge => Topic started by: mrmoody on July 01, 2012, 12:08:39 PM
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I went out last night with a friend on Broad Street in Birmingham which is the local bar/club/pub circuit(circus). I dont go out at all, not much anyways. I didnt really enjoy it, I found it an alienating and expensive waste of time. I dont think I even enjoy alcohol anymore to be honest, even though my drinking has always been about self-medicating and sitting on my own drinking. Last night was loud, alienating and I felt an outsider in it all. I am 39 and I didnt enjoy it much when I was 20 yrs younger so doing it now just felt that bit worse. I am £40 worse off and have a hangover which makes my depression much worse. I just dont see the point in it anymore. I dont enjoy alcohol as much and nights out like that never interested me that much. I start on antabuse next Friday, I cant wait. No more hangovers and feeling depressed feeling next day
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I think we all get to the stage where we realise we dont still enjoy the things we did when younger and, in my case not physically able :( goat wrestling (trimming their feet), cow taming, breaking horses, "just help lift this" (top off a 6 cylinder diesel lorry engine) etc etc
Z xxx
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Mr Moody &*(
I can totally relate to what you're saying. I do like a drink indoors but cannot be bothered with the expensive city socialising. It's been a long time since I had a drink indoors due to the yucky feelings the next day. Depression is bad enough without an additional hang over.
I take it antabuse is anti-alcohol. I'm sure it's only half the battle but I wish you well with this
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yeah antabuse is a medication that makes you ill if you drink while on it. I plan to take it for a year or so. I have already started alcohol counselling as well
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Good luck with this. Hope you are feeling better by now? Know what you mean about it being a waste of money as I would far rather stay in too, dread going out in that way and avoid it as much as I can.
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Me too Happy, hate it and only did as I went down to Birmingham to see a mate and he suggested it. I did it and I didnt like it and knew I wouldnt. Just an extra incentive now to give up the booxe. Thankfully he suggested if I go down and visit again that we do non alcohol related activities in future which suits me. I still feel rough as in down and last night before bed I felt suicidal and had a terrible time getting to sleep also.
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Whenever I've been drinking, I never sleep. It seems to be like a stimulant to me and usually lasts until the day after hangover ends.
Good luck mr moody
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oh well its done and over with now. Was a waste of money as far as I am concerned and I could have spent the money on some hobby. I have to stay sober now for 4 more days anyways before I go on antabuse.
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I have had addiction problems. I dunno how i'd cope with something that made me ill if I touch my 'addictive pleasure'......Mmmm not even sure it would be enough to stop me
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alcohol has never really been my friend like I think it has, has always lead to big problems in my life plus these horrible two day depression hangovers are more of an incentive than ever before to stop. Money, health, mental wellbeing all of it comes in to it. Not saying its going to be easy hence why the antabuse. But it will help and I can do it
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You can do it Mr moody, you sound motivated enough.
I gave up alcohol, fags, cocaine, amphetamines and diazepam. I still enjoy a wee puff of hash through a pipe but I now only use a little at night, rather than all day long - I have been a very greedy substance abuser. I still very occasionally drink a little alcohol as it never did feel an addiction like the other stuff. It's my 49th birthday tomorrow, so I might well have a wee glass or two!!
When I first gave up all this stuff, it was very difficult. Life felt so empty and boring. I was always a "high performance substance abuser". However, I plodded through my days doing the same things I would've done had I been off my face. Before too long, I was able to do everything without thinking much about the substances.
It can be a tedious journey, but stick with it and, before long, you'll be bouncing with enthusiasm &(*
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I am doing it so as I can see my kids again as well as my ex brought up all my past alcohol abuse the first time a solicitor of mine wrote to her, in fact anything and everything she could including self harm which hasnt happened since 1998. Thanks for the support Cat, you gave up a hell of alot yourself so you know about the emptiness it can bring. Can I ask what you did to fill your time? Also what is a high perfomance substance abuse user? Does that mean you held down a job and was active as in going out alot? Did you give up purely by decision and willpower alone or with help and support groups?
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You will do it(http://depressionforums.co.uk/dpf/mobiquo/emoji/E00E.png). Good for you Mr Moody. S x x x x
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I know you can too xxx
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thanks guys it wont be easy but it can be done
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Have every faith in you (http://depressionforums.co.uk/dpf/mobiquo/emoji/E056.png). S x x x x
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Me too xxx
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Yes, mr moody, the emptiness and utter boredom that tag along behind abstinence are probably the worst for everyone.
Ones mind does then starts to play tricks on yourself....."maybe one wouldn't hurt" or :"a wee sneaky one"..."no one will know". Not only are you dealing with your cold turkey but you may also be facing the challenging aggravation of your own self trying to tempt you back.
Smoking fags, for me, is prob the worst substance to give up. What I found in previous unsuccessful attempts, I would stay clear of anything or anyone who were smoking, I would avoid people and places....trying not to give into my temptations....tut....I still started back.
This time I gave up, whenever I craved for fags, I'd close my eyes and pictured myself smoking - tasting, smelling, all the smoke and its smells and also the smell it made at home and on my clothes. It'll be 1 year on 11th August when my fags were evicted
It helps to keep busy. Do you have people to meet who don't drink....would you consider an AA meeting? Find a great book that will specifically give you encouragement in your plight.
However, if you do not manage it this time, never get too discouraged.....there is a time and place for every event in our lives.
If you ever wanna chat Mr moody on here or by PM, then please feel free. Before I became a drug user I worked in Drug Rehab and was a telephone counsillor for National Drug helpline and National AIDS.....so I have a good ear. It;s important to have people around you, either in person or on-line. Personally I find mine beneficial on line
Here's hoping this posts now
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thanks Zaf, Shaz, Catbrain. yes Cat smoking is the devil, I just started up again, swapping one bad habit for another eh.I will send you a Pm if things get really tough for me ok? I did try AA when I lived in Inverness but found it too draining and felt like a fraud being there anyways. I have tried this before and had sevearal failed attempts the longest abstinence being 9 months on just willpower alone but this time I feel I have alot to gain and not so much to lose. Unfortunately most of my friends drink but the ones that live in Sheffield know I am going on antabuse now.
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Dont see it as a waste of money but a realisation that it is time to move on and change as that no longer feeds your needs.
Good luck $%$
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it was a waste of money as I could have spent it on something worthwhile like a hobby, even a couple of airfix models to spendmy time concentrating on would have been better spent