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General => Welcome our 'NEW MEMBERS'!! => Topic started by: Ducky on June 22, 2012, 03:12:48 PM
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Hello,
I have been a member of various forums in the past but this is my first time on one related to depression. The closest I have come was on a US forum devoted to grief.
Briefly, in December 2010 I lost my only son. I live alone (now) - my son was adopted from Thailand - and he had been with me for about 21 years or so. As soon as he passed away, my world fell apart. I had suffered from depression, ever since I lost my mother back in 1979 when I was just 19.
After I lost my son, no one was able to say whether I was "just" grieving or sinking further into depression. It is now almost 18 months since my son passed away and I am no better. I still cry every day and find it difficult to function. I keep having awful flashbacks too. I tried bereavement counselling but didn't get on with it.
I have been on various anti-depressants in the past (Prozac, Effexor and Prothiaden [yuck]), most recently the dreaded Paroxetine, because I also suffer from a form of OCD, as well as social phobia and also migraines. But after many years (must be over 15 now), I feel it has lost its effectiveness. I am going back to my GP to see if I can either withdraw from it (with dread as I know the risks are enormous and it is notoriously difficult to withdraw from) and/or whether or not another anti-depressant might prove more effective. I have had it with counselling, psychiatrists and various other therapists as I have no faith in them any longer and I only want to talk to people who knew my son.
Anyway, sorry for the long introduction and thanks for "listening".
Ducky
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And welcome, everyone here will help as much as they can :)
Z xx
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)-_ hello and welcome to the forum, I am so sorry for your loss !+_.
S x x x x
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Thank you both for your kind welcomes.
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Hi Ducky and welcome
I am so sorry for your loss. I really hope you find some comfort here, this is a lovely friendly place. I was on paroxetine but not for long so withdrawal wasn't too bad but I hope someone here can give you some advice about it
Kate x
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Thank you. I have made a post on the medication section.
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Hi Ducky....welcome. I am sorry for your loss. Hope you find it helpful here. I was on Paroxatine and found it difficult to come off. I took my time and cut it down very slowly over 3 months. Maybe now isn't the best time for you to try this, although I appreciate you feeling they are no longer working. My meds are always changed every 2-3 years.
Cat x
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+_+ and _)_ , yes grief is hard to deal with. My mum died last year two days before Mother's Day so both the anniversary of her death and Mother's Day were difficult to get through this year.
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Hi Ducky, so sorry to hear of your loss :( grief is very hard to deal with. Everyone is here to support you as best we can xxx
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Thank you all again - I was a member of a US grief forum briefly, but with both the time difference between the US and UK and the fact that everyone - obviously - talked about their bereavements, I felt it was time to move on. It was quite a relief, ironically, as reading everyone else's losses made me seven adder, some were just horrendous. "At least" my son died in hospital, surrounded by those who loved him and wasn't in any pain, he was in a hepatic coma for the last few days of his life, having succumbed to cirrhosis, amongst other things.
I am sure trying new medication is long overdue - I have been on Seroxat far too long.
Ducky
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Welcome - this is a good group of supportive people :)
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Welcome Ducky (I'm also new here)
I'm very sorry for your loss. What a terrible ordeal you've been through.
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Emma xx
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an awful thing to happen to anyone. We're all a shoulder to cry on in here. !£!
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Thank you again one and all: in the past 18 months I've probably shed enough tears to end the hosepipe ban single handed. -_)
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That's to be expected!
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Emma xx