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Title: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: CharleysAngel' on June 03, 2012, 09:50:56 PM

I have started cutting again, just now. I haven't done it for such a long time. I don't know if its from the stress of being stuck in with my family all day because of the rain and bank holiday but they have probably driven me to insanity.
I fed up of feeling ill all of the time, I can't deal with it. I miss dancing so much and I was want all this to stop so I can go back to my old life. No one even cares how I feel either, I haven't heard from my friends for days and no one is bothered about how I feel. I need to get the pain out somehow. I can't tell anyone because I don't want to go back to CAMHS :'( :'(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Sweetpea on June 03, 2012, 09:59:21 PM

I am so sorry icelolly, I have no experiene of SI, but I do feel for you and understand how feeling so poorly all of the time is getting to you.

S x x x x

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: cornish on June 03, 2012, 10:28:13 PM

im not really about here much anymore but people do care about you here.

si is a difficult thing to deal with. just be safe and clean with it. 

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: CharleysAngel' on June 03, 2012, 10:42:15 PM

I'm just so fed up of being sick and boring all the time, I just can't do it and no one will help me :'( I'm so tired from crying and no one cares :'( I will no doubt cry myself to sleep and no one will ever even know :'(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Sweetpea on June 03, 2012, 10:44:23 PM

 &*( just wish I could do something to help. 

S x x x x

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Buttercup on June 03, 2012, 11:02:19 PM

 &*( &*( &*(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Beetzart on June 03, 2012, 11:22:51 PM

I'm so sorry to hear that, Icelolly.  I have self harmed so I know the feeling.  Do you think this may be leading to depression, possibly?  Is there maybe anything that can distract you, something to make you feel worthy?  Even if it was reading or music.

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: CharleysAngel' on June 04, 2012, 04:59:30 AM

I fell asleep, and had a horrible nightmare and can't get back to sleep. I just feel so worthless :'(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Buttercup on June 04, 2012, 08:05:20 AM

You're not worthless Icelolly  &*( &*(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: CharleysAngel' on June 04, 2012, 08:45:25 AM

Thanks Buttercup xx

Feeling a bit better now. Im just angry at myself for being so stupid last night, its such a silly thing to do :'(

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Zaf on June 04, 2012, 09:06:35 AM

I hope ypu feel better this morning IceLolly xxx

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: CharleysAngel' on June 04, 2012, 09:33:16 AM

Thanks Zaf xx

I am feeling a bit better this morning.

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: Zaf on June 04, 2012, 09:39:09 AM

Thats good to hear :) xx

Title: Re: I just want to keep cutting
Post by: whiteadder on June 13, 2012, 04:33:32 PM

Quote from: IceLollyx on June 04, 2012, 09:33:16 AM

I am feeling a bit better this morning.

That's good Icelolly :)